saturday was well.. a sad day. especially saturday night.

my whole extended family was celebrating my grandpa's birthday. so my family got their the earliest. a big table to ourselves, just waiting for the other families. my dad was smoking. my mum was dont know where doing dont know what.

so i sat next to my bro. and in the car i was listening to "How do I live" by leanne rimes. and i dont know why, its a love song, but i thought of my bro.

im gonna miss him so much, next year when he goes to NS.

i asked "korkor, how if we ever lose contact"

he said "nah, we won't"

and i said "we might. like when you go to NS, i'll be mugging through my secondary school year. and when you come back during the weekends. i'll be in CCA and tuition. sunday i'll be in church. and after a few months when you go overseas to study i'll be mugging through JC. then before you come back, i'll be flying overseas to study. and what if we lose contact then"

he said "you're the kind of person that would cling onto me before i board the plane"

yeah, true. but you know, it keeps me thinking. my bro has always been there for me, supported me in whatever i do. be it join band, or do stuff behind mummy's back. he comforts me, and he teaches me lots of things. who's gonna comfort me or guide me through the hardest part of my life yet. my rebellious stage. that would be when im most confused, when i need him to guide me and stuff. but he won't be there. its like losing an idol..

so he allowed me, during his NS period when he comes back during the weekends, start talking to him like im stark-raving mad until he goes to sleep. so i can tell him everything that happened. oh i dunno.

but im so excited! I BOUGHT WESTLIFE'S "LIVE AT WEMBLEY" DVD! I'VE BEEN WANTING A WESTLIFE CONCERT DVD SINCE LIKE FOREVER! i actually wanted a tour dvd BUT A CONCERT DVD IS CHEAPER AND GOOD ENOUGH! its got "dont cha" inside. the one that i love.

and my dad says ant and dec are crap. THEY'RE NOT! THEY'RE ME IDOLS! speaking of idols, i downloaded britain's got talent 2 ep 2 to watch. but im revising for my french now. ARGGHHHH.

dorcas' been an idiot to me recently. i mean that's not a brush off statement. just that i've no time to type now.

ciao.