I HAVE JUNIORS! I HAVE JUNIORS!

wang yun and valerie are they're names. i think they're nice. wang yun doesn't like the trombone section. she wants to be in percs. so she really really dislikes playing the trombone. dislikes it with passion. hahahahhaha.

valerie's nice. i took her for auditions. saw her after that and waved. saw her again today in band. happy she got in. AND NOW SHE'S IN OUR SECTION!:D

yay i like having juniors.

shit this is scary. there's this funeral at the next block and it kinda sounded like 'parumpampampa' which is like from little drummer boy. i went 'why are there people singing 'the little drummer boy'? isn't christmas over?' only to realise it's a funeral singing the funeral song.

how scary.

just forgot to add... 2GY WE'RE AWESOME! PRIZE FOR THE CLASS DECOR! WE ARE SO AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2GY IS AWESOME. i just love 2gy. we're this very unco-operative class. which i know pisses chevelle and phyllis off. but i dunno, i just love 2gy? we're all nice people. hahahahahah. what a good reason to love 2gy:/ but yeah, 2gy's just really good.

2GYRAFFES, WE TOWER OVER YOU!

I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY ANIMAL FARM SPEECH! i finally got it done and over with. after three weeks of horrible waiting. it was kinda good, i guess. it sounded so cheem cause i 'synonymed' the words on microsoft word and just clicked on which one sounded nice so it sounded cheem. not that i have good vocab. i have terrible vocab. wonder where it went to:/

third time i had to go to other classes to borrow history books cause i got the timetable mixed up again! but luckily it was changed and john teo came in to do geog instead. pretty okay.

had investiture after school. so chevelle, sarah, yun ru, chloe and i just stoned in class for awhile before going to the shaw hall. was shit boring, investiture.

I LOST LEANNE'S JACKET! sorry man, i'll promise i'll find it or buy a new one for you. i know, i know, SENTIMENTAL VALUE! hahahahahaha.

went home with mun. she alighted at novena, ditching me. i'm starving.

JUNIORS TOMORROW! i'm so excited. yayyyyyy. but sec 2's and 3's supposed to have sectionals together or something. dammit. i wanna see my juniors. we're definitely getting at least one scholar. oh well, they're nice.

i was watching the ultimate bitch show 'janice dickinson's modeling agency'. i hear my brother punching my mum's door and walking out and my mum screaming mad again.

something must've happened. he's back in the room.

chinese new year day turned ugly.

i've just decided. at the end of the day i'm gonna calm down and think why was i so vulgar and extreme. and i'll end up saying 'i have the most awesome brother ever!'

so why get angry in the first place. i shall watch I Am Legend or Ip Man to cheer me up. why do violent action movies cheer me up? i have no idea.

gah and i don't know why i'm so upset.

i'm still bothered by the fact he calls me a betrayer and that's why he's been horrible to me. i don't diss you infront of eunice. i'm telling the truth. is a relationship full of deceit and secrets what you want? why don't you tell eunice how you are at home and your horrible habits when you were younger and whatever.

would she feel disgusted? i spill your horrible habits when you were younger, the rubbish stuff you used to do. or rather, we used to do. the horrible things we did to our parents. why can't she know those? would she hate you or love you less or something.

i'm not the betrayer. you're the spoiler.

WHY SO EMO. IT'S CNY. maybe the cheena-ness is spoiling it all. cheena. whywhywhy!

well somebody's certainly been a mood spoiler on cny.

went out for a late night movie yesteryday. 'the wedding game' was extremely disturbing. can't believe it's pg. i saw 7-year old kids in there, they must've been so polluted by the end. before the movie, i wanted to take a picture of the empty junction 8, rare sight. and my brother went 'take what take' and threw his banana skin at me. i was pissed enough and then he asked me to pick it up. then you think i'm showing attitude when i don't reply your question cause i didn't hear it since i'm so wrapped in my angry thoughts.

you know, why control so much? i control so much and at the end it's still misunderstood as attitude. if i didn't control, when my brother said 'didn't you hear my question?' i would say 'no' and walk off. and when he said 'have you been living under a rock for 10 years of your life?' i would say 'yes, not like you who has probably engaged in underage sex'

i wonder what the hell happened to that nice brother who would do fun stuff with his sister. now it's turned to pointing middle fingers, swearing vulgarities, being horrible, and being even more horrible.

so we were basically taking pictures to send to the laos people. since the people at CNEC said so. my brother decided to take my room. then i'm like 'i should be in there! since it's my room! else it'll look like who's there? my dead grandmother?' eunice and i burst out laughing. it wasn't funny. well we were just in a good mood but it was something you would give a blank stare at in normal moods.

then my brother said 'that wasn't funny.' eunice and i continued laughing. he said 'i said that wasn't funny. wipe that smile off your face' i'm like. wth?! is he trying to spoil the mood again. eunice didn't wipe that smile off her face either. why don't you go attack her instead of me. why spoil the mood then tell my parents that i won't listen unless he's firm with me. bloody hell what's wrong with saying lame stuff and just laughing. then he goes saying 'bloody hell tell her to stop laughing still laugh' why don't you tell that in eunice's face? did she stop laughing?

and i still feel so guilty talking about eunice like that. but it's true. he thinks his girlfriend is fucking superior. i'm fat, no good at the piano and i'm a horrible person. she's skinny, extremely multi-talented and the best person in the world.

why am i talking about this again? on cny. he's going to use up all his niceness sooner or later. i wonder how i thought of his niceness theory. he has a certain amount of niceness which is used up on eunice everyday so he comes back home being the bastard he is. and everyday it decreases so he just keeps trying to use all of it on eunice and being even more bastard at home. sooner or later there won't be enough and he'll just end up a bastard. the bastard he is.

how vulgar am i.

so how's my reunion dinner going? didn't eat much. the food was scrumptuously okay. if that makes sense.

didn't get to open the bottle of moscato.:(

watched IP MAN AGAIN! IP MAAAAAAAAAAAN! pronounced as yip mun. IP MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN! makes me proud to be chinese or whatever.

going out for a late night movie with my brother and eunice. WEDDING GAME!!!!!!!!!! i actually love watching these stupid local films during cny. seems funny. anything for a laugh after a dreadful cheena-fied day. my entire house is cheena-fied. WHYWHYWHY!

i'm leaving the house for the movie now! starting at 11.30. gahhhh gonna be late if i continue stoning.

relatives have now left. i'm safe to go. will call my brother and eunice out of the room now. wonder what they're doing in there, hmmmmmmm:/

pw meetings were so fun! friday night pw meeting was slow progressing. we just sorted out what we wanted to do and marvin khoo played like a few songs so we settled for bosanova style. which is like jazz but non-swing. then ate kfc. and had a bitching session. asked marvin khoo who was gonna be dm or bm. found a pretty interesting answer. the rest was just shit funny.

sleepover was emofied by my spasms. i had weird spasms! not angry spasms like the ones in sectionals but weird spasms. talked emo-ly with kai. fell asleep soundly while i rested all my weight on one leg and right now it hurts like mad and i can barely walk. woke up at 8.30ish. everybody stoned and did lame stuff till 9.30. i realised i went 'toh' subconsciously last night. again. must tell sebastian about this weird habit now.

phoned marvin khoo if he wanted to join us for breakfast. he said no. went to the prata shop and ate prata. phoned him again to tell him we'll be 10 mins late so he just met us at the prata shop. was extremely full. didn't like the milo dinosaur. raced marvin khoo back to chloe's house. he drove at 10km/h while we ran. some good exercise that was.

settled down quickly with chloe while leanne,kai and serena were jumping in the pool. did some melody composing while waiting for them. they finally got out and dried themselves. did some more changes and melody composing. leanne was in a stoney mood. chloe was in a verbal diarrhoeaish mood, i was in a lame mood. "I now pronounce you husband and saxophone" hahahaha. "your girlfriend hit me!".

regret telling him about my brother. some sick shit it was.

giving a very mundane and tired account of what happened. was meant to be happy and energetic. i'm extremely sleepy. i can't wait for the next pw meeting. wow, i sound so excited.

found out more stuff about conductors. :/

i'm so tired now. why am i still typing?

was in a terrible mood throughout band. extremely stuffy and hot near the spiral staircase for sectionals.

was extremely grumpy. but unlike leanne AND janine, i didn't snap at everybody at the chance i had to. leanne and janine were basically snapping at each other and pissing each other off. i just kept saying 'toh' under my breath to keep myself calm. so i sounded like a psychopath going 'toh, toh, toh, toh'. omg what is my problem with psychopaths?! i asked marvin khoo the psychopath question and apparently he knew it already. no fun.

yeah so whenever something went wrong i would swear 'bloody hell' under my breath. and get along. then i couldn't stand it and i started having spasms and struggled to stop having spasms.

so basically, very demoralised. cause i sucked. with the new big mouthpiece. extremely demoralised. so after sectionals ended at 4.30 i stoned for awhile. our pw group discussed stuff with marvin khoo for awhile. then i went back to practice. leewei was practising at the weird bench thing. so i went outside the band room there to practice.

was less grumpy. GOT A RIDE HOME FROM MARVIN! he actually planned to drop me off at orchard mrt station which is still good since i don't have to take the bloody bus. then he said he was super early and so he sent me all the way home. his car is nice. and it reminded me of desouza's car. later to realise it IS THE SAME CAR.

and i learnt a lot about the conductors. loads and loads. marvin khoo is such a blabbermouth. i might use that as useful blackmail stuff. hmmmmmmm:/ shall not put those stuff up on the blog. not good to blabber stuff about conductors to everybody! mwaahahahahah.

I SHOULD'VE BROUGHT MY TROMBONE HOME DAMMIT. when i learnt that he was sending me home i asked him to stop so i could take my trombone only to realise the band room was locked. __ why do they have to close it so early. i mean uh hummmm, why does she have to close it so early.

so it was a good ride home. duh better than taking bus, mrt and bus and walking before reaching home. and so now i'm in a good mood!

school was boring. fell asleep in every lesson besides lang arts. sighhhh. bio was the worse. i fell asleep 10 times. 3 minutes each. the other half of the time was spent struggling with myself to keep awake. how pathetic.

i'm turning into a mundane, boring person:/

sigh, so disappointed with myself. i come home everyday thinking 'yes, i'm gonna do my homework!' and feel so inspired to finally do it. and then i reach home and i don't. i can never bring myself to.

and i slack all day at the comp till i get giddy. i even find more interest in writing cards to laos people than doing my homework. or reading my animal farm speech for the 8th time. or playing the piano. or doing anything but my homework. why,why,why?! why the hell am i such a lazy bugger. it's not like i don't want to. i can never bring myself to. this is what i call lack of discipline. sadddd.

okay talk about happy things. MRS CHIA HAS AGREED TO LET US DO THE PROJECT TOGETHER! and she seems happy:D so we're doing it on friday and saturday, our first two meetings. then not sure when's the rest gonna be. we spent about 50 mins trying to look for her. how tiring.

went home on the bus to realise my ezilink card was missing. must've been when chloe was playing with it. gahhhhhh. mum's gonna scream at me for losing it AGAIN.

I'VE GOT A NEW MOUTHPIECE! well actually i had the new mouthpiece last week. two in fact. and i gave one to janine. but janine didn't want it. so much for being nice!





oh well. the mouthpiece had a super nice name "Schike" or something like that. seems like i'm the only one in band having that brand. so i took that mouthpiece and put away my new old one. so the one i'm playing now is super uber big. bigger than mr tans. :O





i'm gonna research on die fledermaus. "a very lame, complicate love story" is how mr tan describes it as. omg i have the habit of saying mr tan now! awesome.





band was kinda okay today. NEXT THURSDAY'S THE JUNIORS FIRST DAY IN BAND! OMG CAN'T WAIT! although i'll be having sectionals while janine and emily do the job. HAVING JUNIORS IS SO COOL. as i said, I'VE ALWAYS WANTED JUNIORS! somehow i think i would go better with the juniors. i'm not senior-ish. well i'm senior-juniorish or junior-seniorish, whichever goes. yayyyyyyyy.





no band on saturday. probably having pw then. hmmmmmm:/





apparently, Stamford Raffles was a scandalous guy. jacq pointed to me and shouted 'just like cheryl'. how would a scandalous guy be singapore's founder and a much respected person. eeeeeeks. must stop my scandalousness then!





i heard mice in the void deck squeaking. :O




that's george and bonnie doing their solo dance during the last day of the camp. well the last night. no wait, it was 7pm, yet extremely dark. MY CLASS IS THE MOST AWESOME. all the singers, musicians, dancers all come from my class:D

i wonder where's the picture of peter the handsome guy.

a dosage of laos a day, keeps the doctor away :/

had church today. no mood at all. sf spoils it all. sf, one big family. bullshit man. why's everything so screwed and pretentious in sf. it's supposed to be Student FELLOWSHIP. FELLOWSHIP.

i was reading a fellow churchmate's blog. her new year resolution or so i think was to have more friends in church. ...?! it's like saying. "I want to be more popular" and stuff like that. If you so happen are good friends with everybody and can get along very well then whatever, you're born popular. but if you can't, why want to be? it's this whole big family concept. you know everyone who enters sf wants to be part of the big family. and everyone in the big family doesn't care about people who aren't in the big family. everything's so.... pretentious.

and the fact is that this big family isn't such a family afterall. everybody isn't really close to everybody. and everything is so on the surface. maybe i'm speaking from a loner, an outsider's point of view. but it's so true.

dammit. WHY SO UNHAPPY.

yay there's school tomorrow! to save me from my rubbish. hmmmmm, i'm thinking of buying my own mouthpiece. so it's like MY OWN! but brando just bought two bass trombone mouthpieces. isn't it a waste if i buy my own. BUT I WANNA CARVE MY NAME ON IT! HOW COOL! it's called the cheryl mouthpiece. MY MOUTHPIECE. gahhhhh nevermind i'll do that when i graduate and get myself one.

well had band today. sectionals with sebastian. was okay, pretty fun. and i think i improved somehow a lot. or probably due to THE NORMAL TROMBONE:D

had a new mouthpiece! brando gave me like two, and i don't know why. such a waste of money to give me two and choose between the more preferred one and throw the other one inside the case or cupboard or something. so i gave the other one to janine so she could give hers to wy. how nice of me:D

i think i sound much better. after band leanne, kym and chloe had a double birthday outing which i was unable to attend due to stupid chinese tuition>:(

gahhh i spent like 1/2 hr roaming around the shopping centre doing nothing and buying black pepper ribs and taquitos. how interesting:/ i became the teacher's pet cause apparently she thought that i was a chinese pro, wow. and i didn't fall asleep in class like the last time. so she probably saw the improvement.

came home, watched tv. printed out "Please Forgive Me" 's piano scoresheet and tried it out on the piano. played the piano for awhile more. bathed. had dinner. now back on the comp. what a no life i am.

maybe i should stop being so self-absorbed. but after you lose all self-absorbency(whatever the term is) you find yourself so self-conscious. too self-conscious in fact. and very, very miserable. why can't there be something in the middle. something just right. but who created the concept of 'just right' anyway? why is there always a norm and the weirdness for everything.

and why am i talking rubbish and not being happy like back in 1sy again. :(

wow i'm scared for section auditions and i don't even know the exact date for it. how smart.

school was so retarded today. INSTANT NOODLES IN A CUP & HOT WATER IN A FLASK & NO FORK = cooked instant noodles being dug up with fingers.

gahhhhhh. when's section auditions. think it's after chinese new year. hmmmmm..?

MY EGO WENT BACK TO NORMAL! by normal i mean by a normal person's normal. not my normal, which is huge.

I HAD A NORMAL BAND PRAC TODAY! finallyyy! no more horrible sounds which i believe is caused by my trombone but on the other hand i believe i'm making excuses again. so i used the normal trombone today, since janine sent mine for repair. WILL BE BACK NEXT MONTH:O WHY SO SLOW!

I SOUNDED OKAYYYY! like not too bad. didn't have to put in as much effort as playing the bass trombone. didn't get frustrated or busy. lousy tonguing, but that'll improve over time!

MUST.NOT.FAIL.SECTION.AUDITION. so scared i will. but using the normal trombone should be easier than using bass. I SOUNDED LOUDER! yayyyyyyy.

no more demoralisation for me!:D

my ego takes a further plunge. i was terrible today. went to band to practice during recess. i was terrible, horrible. i sounded shittier. WHYWHYWHY!

further demoralisation..

i'm still so demoralised. no mood to do anything else right now. i think i totally sucked during band.

crap shit horrible.

gahhhh so demoralised during band today. crap horrible band prac. rephrase. i was crap horrible during band prac.

i didn't have the mood for band although in the morning i had loads of mood for band and the previous day too. i guess practising during that 1/2 hr with leanne destroyed my mood! i can't hold the notes for 8 counts. still. i'm sec 2 already! GASP. and i can't hold notes for 8 counts?!

i shan't make excuses and say oh it's the bass trombone. it's the bigger mouthpiece and stuff. cause it's been a month i think since i got the mouthpiece and trombone. and i still can't hold 8 counts.

then i played shit horrible during band. sounded so out of tune, and horrible intonation and everything was horrible. the worst i've played in a long time. then i swear there was this rattling sound coming from my trombone which janine insists is the metal frame things coming from the lights. but i still insist it's from my trombone. so it really affected me.

and i was shit horrible. so demoralisedddddddd.

gahhhhhh last post was so vulgar. i'm still super stressed over overdue homework yet i can't be bothered to lift a finger to touch them. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. WHYWHYWHY?! okay i need to stop that.

WENT TO WAFFLETOWN TODAY! okay today was supposed to be the most awesome day of the week. banana cake during break, band during recess and waffletown after school. we did get banana cake, BUT MR TEE DIDN'T WANT TO OPEN THE BAND ROOM!

DAMMIT! chloe and i were all psyched up to practice in the band room and kinda skip our recess. then we had no mood to eat although i still ate. nothing can keep me away from my food! then we went outside the band room to stone and tried to break in. operation unsuccessful. tomorrow the band room better be open so we can practice! then we started 'walking down memory lane'. which was really dumb but we had no mood to go away from the band room!

i can't believe i'm actually listening to desouza and practising my long notes. i guess it would really help. so i'll have to do it.

i don't like die fledermaus! no bass trombony notes! it's like those normal trombone notes. not fun! should be like overture 1, at least there are like bass trombony notes. what are bass trombony notes? i don't really know. no definition, but that's what i call it. grrrrrr. i like bass trombony notes, gives me something to practice for!

today's school was so random. adila came in class extremely high. her high-ness didn't fade at all.

2 Gyraffes, we tower over you!! All animals are equal, but 2gy is more equal than others. or something like that. I don't remember quotes from animal farm dammit!

been doing some serious stalking business. MWAHAHAHAHA! EGGS, EGG POSTER, AUTOBIOGRAPHY SPEECH & POWERPOINT SLIDE!

you know i've started off this year SO ENTHU! it's amazing how enthu i can get. from being so negative and critical about everything to just PLAIN ENTHU. i hope this continues and isn't a start-of-the-year thing.

2 gyraffes, WE TOWER OVER YOU!

BLOODY HELL! I'M FUCKING PISSED.

I GOT CHEATED! I GOT CHEATED! fine since the stupid cheapest phonecard which is $5 for 34 minutes ran out of stock, i kept trying new phone cards. EACH MORE EXPENSIVE THAN THE PREVIOUS. then it was 24 minutes for $5. then it went 19 minutes for $5! AND GUESS WHAT TODAY'S PHONECARD BROUGHT FOR ME.

STARHUB INTERNATIONAL CALLING CARD= $10 FOR 15 MINUTES.

HOLY SHIT FUCKED UP CRAP. that is seriously screwed. I'M SCREWED! WHERE THE HELL DO I GET MONEY TO PAY MY MAID BACK?! WHEN IT'S 15 MINUTES! WHAT. THE. FUCK.

i can't believe it. i just got cheated. who the hell charges $10 for 15 minutes?! I'M SO BLOODY UPSET. first i spent $10 today. and my mum only gave me $10, so if she realises that my $10 is missing, she'll get pissed. then i borrowed $8.50 and went to the shops to buy the phonecard. so now i've to pay $8.50.

sorry chloe & cristy, i'll have to pay you guys back next week! omg i already spent half of my allowance on the first day. now i've only got $21.50 left to last me for like the rest of the week.

i'm freaking annoyed. wth! I. GOT. RIPPED. OFF. WHY, WHY, WHY?! WHY LET A 14 YEAR OLD GIRL WHO ONLY RECEIVES $40 FOR ALLOWANCE EACH WEEK SPEND ALMOST $10 WHICH IS A QUARTER OF HER ALLOWANCE ON THE FIRST DAY OF THE WEEK JUST TO CALL BACK TO HER oh bloody hell the wind's so strong it blew down my brother's birthday card which is solid FRIENDS IN LAOS TO MAKE HER LESS HOMESICK TO REALISE SHE GOT RIPPED OFF AND HASN'T GOT MUCH MONEY LEFT FOR THE WEEK?!

omg i'm so pissed. i'm pissed. i'm pissed. i'm pissed. i'm pissed. i'm pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. and i'm not just copying and pasting that out, i'm actually typing that out. seems like therapy, hmmmmm.

i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. this isnt' helping. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i knew i shouldn't have trusted starthub's overratedness. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. fucking cards getting more expensive. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. now i don't know which other card to try, in case i get ripped off. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. WHYWHYWHY STARHUB! i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. WHY DO THIS TO A 14 oh wait 13 YEAR OLD GIRL WHO'S NOW GOING TO END UP LIKE THE MATCHSTICK GIRL! i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed. i need to scream. i'm bloody pissed. i'm bloody pissed.

i'm so pissed. i'm so pissed. i'm so pissed. i'm so pissed. okay now i'm worried. how am i going to survive on $20 and without phonecards. i'm worried. i'm worried. i'm worried. i'm worried. i'm in trouble with kavita. i'm even more worried. i'm even more worried. i haven't done my geog. i'm super worried. i'm super worried. i'm super worried.

wow, i'm actually feeling better now, think it works. wow this post contains lots of swearing. must censor this someday. omg wow i still can't believe it. wow i got ripped off. wow i've no money to buy any more phonecards.

THIS IS WHAT RIPPING OFF 13 YEAR OLD GIRLS DOES TO A PERSON, STARHUB!

uhhhhhh i'm bored. quarrelled with my mum again. i don't bother anymore. the idea of 'not cutting in cause it's rude' is beyond her capacity. wow.

i'm boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. and very tired. can't wait for the first official meeting. POOL PARTY!!!!! hahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha chloe wong!

POOL PARTY AND SLEEPOVER!

NEW TROMBONE TUTOR FOR BAND TODAY! that sebastian guy's gonna be our trombone tutor for 10 sectionals. yay! i've always wanted a trombone tutor. i think he's good! haven't got an opinion on him yet, surprisingly. i'm the type who's quick to judge:/

apparently, MARVIN CAN'T FLOAT ON WATER!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! sebastian was telling us that. and some other stuff about his ex-company:P trombone people would know. can't believe somebody does something so gay man. *shrugs*

wonder when i'm getting my new mouthpiece. i realise i talk more and more about band each day and less and less about other stuff. RANDOM.

okay uhhhhh the three dsa people were here during band with us.

marvin's agreed to mentor us! i feel so optimistic for the fact that i know we're definitely going to be safe. he won't let us pass up a rubbish composition since he loves it so much. he's so nice! and i think he's doing it for free. hmmmmmmm.

i feel so freaking bad! i asked him for a lift to united square and he wasn't familiar with that area and he's going to orchard. later on i learnt that it's not on the way and my mum came so i just left. then chloe called to say that marvin's waiting for me and asked me hurry up. then i called marvin to explain. i hope he's not pissed. like omg how could i! leaving him there waiting for me. i'm a terrible person.

THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T FLOAT ON WATER! :P

okay let's see what happened today. wow three things!

MY BROTHER HAS GONE TO THE ARMYYYYYYY!!!!!:( dammit. today i couldn't wait to get home to tell him about what leanne and i were talking about since i found it funny and disturbing but only to realise he was in the army halfway through tuition. i wonder how's life as a commando. hope he doesn't die though.

WE'RE GETTING MARVIN KHOO FOR MENTOR! YAY! well we're gonna ask him tomorrow. we asked mrs goh who asked us to ask mrs sim who was actually mrs chia. and mrs chia agreed to having an outside mentor instead of a teacher mentor person thingy. mrs goh seemed happy we're doing music composition. gonna be damn hard man. but yay! hope marvin khoo says yes.

what's the third thing ahhhhh.. okay can't remember. but after school leanne, chloe and i went to waffletown! yayyyy!! and talked about disturbingly disturbing things. went for tuition after that.

dammit i've failed to complete all my homework. i'm left with battlefield worksheet. and guess what, i brought yi ling's worksheet home. dammit i've got her into trouble! she's gonna minus marks cause of 'late submission' because i brought her worksheet home. i'm in deeper shit anyway. i'm going to get a zero. i'm a genius. i'm photocopying someone else's answers and handing it up as mine. wow.

OH I FOUND MY WALLET. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. left it in my bag.

on the way back home from tuition in the car, we were listening to "Love Hurts" by nazareth. and i felt so depressed. and i thought of laos. although i have no idea the link between love hurts and laos. i'm like home-sick or something! lol laos is home and singapore is just this random working place.

i'm so sick of seeing technology wherever i go, hearing technology wherever i go, and even smelling technology! i'm serious! it gets so boring. the reason why i probably enjoyed laos so much was because i treated it like an escape. i was draining out by the end of the year and it was like a holiday to me. meant to be a mission trip but it felt so good.

maybe i don't wanna live in laos, but i really miss all the people i taught. they're college students and i actually feel like i'm good friends with them! most of them are like 19-25!

sighhhhhhhhhhhh.

so i've un-privated the blog! AND LOOK AT THE NICE, NICE BAND SKIN! and the nice, nice trombone:D

uhhhh let's see how was school today. miss chow made us memorise some Carl Marx thing. let's see how much i remember... oh shit.

gonna start on homework soon! YAY I LOVE 2GY! i think. i'm sitting next to adila. ANOTHER PREFECT *grunts* but she's nice. and we love showing blank stares during mrs tan's lessons. sitting infront of phyllis and hevina. which is great and means i've got two extra people to bug and be annoying.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROWWWWWWWWW! yayyy let's see how the auditions go! i'm gonna turn up to wipe mouthpieces. O.O and i have just realised the ':O' smiley really looks like me! emily pointed that out.

i went jogging today. about time! going with eunice, ada and don't know who again tomorrow. and hopefully i'll do that everyday. lose weight! you know what, the reason i wanna lose weight is probably the fact that my brother calls me fat. and he just pointed the middle finger at me today. wow, so this is what being a commando in the army does to a person.

hmmmm, got a few memorable things to say.

BAND PRAC ON SATURDAY! was awesome. mr tan set up some old instrument and sat next to emily and played with our section!! he's really enthu and motivates people. but i still find him a little weird. and mysterious, somehow. but it was just awesome! and he's so funny. and he plays really loud too.

SEC 1 ORIENTATION PERFORMANCE! okay it's not really good. we screwed up due to lack of practice obviously. i kept playing wrong notes for instant concert. AND MR TAN DIDN'T TURN UP. grrrrrrr. but we stood up for our parts in big fun which were barbara ann and wipeout. damn awesome. then marvin gave us some talk. which really put me into a grumpy mood. well the trombone juniors. we pulled a long face wherever we went. then we went out of the band room together and saw marvin. then we just walked past him. then he said

'trombone section'
i thought we were gonna get another talk or something.
then we turned back and gave him a bored, blank stare with a long face.
then he said
'good job today'
our faces immediately lit up! SO FUNNY. leanne was like grinning. wy said 'haha thanks' and i said 'yayyyyyyy!' and we ran off enthu-ly to help the rest carry stuff. wheeeeee- we're so easy to please.

CCA walk-about today. i finally met michelle's friend hwee leng! she seems like a damn nice person! i want her in my section. she's really friendly and not shy. no attitude either. she signed up for auditions. the scholars were really eager. the rest of the sec 1's mostly ignored us, had attitude problems, were really shy, or just pissed me off.

SHALL NOT BITCH ABOUT JUNIORS.

was caught making too many overseas calls to laos. my mum banned me from making calls to laos. how am i gonna call robert jr tonight to speak to george? and how am i ever gonna call him and the rest again? really depressed now. can't sms either, since i smsed to laos too much already. emails won't work. god i really need to find a way.

i can't go on spending $10 on phonecards every 3-4 days either you know. i'm not loaded. i just can't wait to go back to laos.. i've never felt so strongly about something. or a place. or about people.