i miss camp so much. I MISS WAYNE AND ESTHER SO MUCH!

it's so good to go to camp and be so dirty and focused on completing whatever it is, rockclimbing or dragonboating. it's so good to have so much class spirit and just cheer your hearts out. it's so good to FORGOT THAT YOU HAVE TONS OF WORK AND TESTS THE NEXT WEEK!

i miss camp terribly! as much as we may complain about starving or ants or heat and want to go home, when you're home, you wanna go back.

38 people managing to bathe in 20 minutes was a miracle and it was a miracle for gy to win the most spirited class! everything that happened was amazing. i can't believe how much spirit we had when we were dragonboating.

to cheer each other on in every activity and really bond as a class, that feeling was so good! to shout the makan cheer like noone's business. to shout OI till you hear echoes and then cheer because you hear echoes.

everything about camp was so awesome.

so i've taken a half an hour shower for once in three days. i feel clean, squeaky clean. i feel relaxed, safe and comfy.

BUT I MISS CAMP! I MISS INSTRUCTOR WAYNE AND ESTHER!

camp was the best thing ever. gy bonded so much. especially during the second day's dragonboating in the rain incident.

i miss camp. there's so much to say right now that i don't know where to start!

so i shan't, but i shall just say camp was so good.

i WILL, and i swear I WILL get my trombone. i've only $250 to earn, how hard can that get! okay suddenly, $250 compared to $4000 doesn't seem a lot, but $250 compared to what i have now, seems a lot. :/

school was okay today i think.

i need serious help on the bass trombone.

i actually want to buy myself a trombone. like it's impossible to drag home my trombone after band prac. and it's not good to do that, cause it's so crowded in the train and bus. people would stare and get annoyed that it takes up space.

and i always wanna practice at home.

so i go into my brother's room saying 'okay i want a new trombone and...' before i finish, my brother lectures me on how i always want this and want that and am so spoilt and blahblahblah. SHUT UP AND LET ME FINISH!

i was gonna say 'i want a new trombone and i need to save up some money to at least pay half. i need money-saving/earning ideas'.

so i no longer plan to buy a $6000 trombone, cause that sucks. so expensive. so let's say $3500-$4000.

$3500/2 = $1250

I have $1000 in my bank account(why don't i ever save money?!) and so i probably need about $500 if i want an inbetween $35000-$4000 trombone.

i intend to wash-cars:/

so my brother should just shut up and listen. everyone in the family always butts in and never lets people finish their sentences. that includs me. how sad.

i still want a new trombone.

okay so there were section auditions today. i felt like stoning and just waiting for our turn. was so impatient.

as usual, still couldn't play overture 1 properly. how disappointing. i got extremely grumpy and moody. then got better!:D brando tan says we don't need to audition:S i don't know if that's good or bad. it's good that we don't need to audition and we're through but it's bad that we don't get the satisfaction of the 'getting through auditions' thing. and nobody to pick our mistakes out or tell us how to improve:/

SOCCER WAS CRAZYYYYY! i was exhausted. but it was fun! got owned by THE SENIOR TEAM(janine, emily and marvin khoo) come on! sec 3, 4, and 26 year old against three sec 2s!

played CRICKET! well i watched marvin khoo play at least. was pretty funny.

whole section got a ride home. wy, then emily, then janine and i since we're going to the same place and leanne last. i had to run out and get his ball twice in the rain. was drenched. BUT I LOVE BEING DRENCHED!

tuition was funnnnn! and i finally like talked. i was in such a hyper mood after the exercise regime thing i just talked and opened up to all the tuition people. went down to buy stuff for lunch cause i told the teacher i didn't have lunch. and acted pitiful, telling her how i ran in the rain just to get to tuition. so i bought some stuff for the other tuition people. which consisted of ice-cream, macdonalds, black pepper ribs and old chang kee.

i'm gonna have a barbeque with my brother and eunice now! IN HIS ROOM! he dismantled his bed and drumset and everything and shifted them to the balcony. and set up his barbeque pit. so now we're going out to get stuff to barbeque.

YAY!

my brother's back from the army! he got an extra day after this weird 8-day field camp.

so he's back for three days! although it doesn't make a difference, cause it's just an extra day to go out with eunice:/ I NEED TO TALK TO HIM! there's so much to tell him! band, tests, math, stress, good stuff, blahblah.

he should come back early tonight so i could see him for more than 10 minutes before he leaves for i-don't-know-where again.

i'm becoming so negative:(

no matter how satisfied and happy i feel after sectionals, or happy with myself for practising hard, there's always this pit bottom of discontentment, dissatisfaction, dissapointment and frustration. i finally figure what it is. i'm practising so much, but i'm not improving enough.

i'm not improving at the pace i should be. i'm not being all low ego and saying i suck and i'm not good. i just feel that i'm not good enough. i'm really not improving enough.

and today i just felt so happy because i finally had enough air to play part B of overture 1 without having to breathe at random weird places. and somebody had to be all demoralising.

geog was fun today. comp lad 3, type and print a lorms essay on why singapore is a transport and communications hub with evidence from the textbook. which was piece of cake.

MATH TUITION WAS FUN! did i just say that? yeah i did.
i finally found somebody that's exactly the same as me(creepy) and somebody i can talk to in tuition. FINALLY, after being overloaded with mgs girls all over the place. not that there's anything wrong with that, they're nice:/

so today wasn't so much of a bad day. bad day in school but good day after school.

i was looking through my old blog. i realised how different i am now.

i used to love church, and be so close to my level people, and i used to be so close to dominic, which now i only talk to once a month or whatever. i used to blabber all about church and laugh and laugh. and enjoy tuition(what?!) and was close to my tuition mates. i used to play with dominic a lot and have a lot of fun.

now, i hate church. i'm not close to anybody there. i dread tuition. i don't really have tuition friends. i hardly see dominic anymore.

how sad has my life become?

i have a bad feeling about section auditions:( somehow..

my ego has been on a roller-coaster ever since the start of the year. now it's in the wavy part of the ride, stuck in between or something.

so i changed to a smaller mouthpiece today. is that supposed to be good? i mean i could hold a note for 16 counts, which i normally can't with the bigger mouthpiece. not even 10 counts. but the bigger mouthpiece gave me something to push towards. to constantly push lots and lots of air and i really had to have a lot of air. and now this smaller mouthpiece...

and i've a fever today. it was burning early in the morning. referring to my fever. and i was shivering. went home at 10am. i insisted on going for band so i took a cab at about 2.15 or so.

i feel like i need an mc for tomorrow.

sighhh sometimes i feel like i'm doing okay, sometimes i feel like i've done terrible.

and i think i've flunked my lang arts test, must ask ms chow for a retest. i was shivering while doing the damn paper!

bad mood..

retarded shit!


Cheryl the daryl says:
DAMN!
Bruised. says:
ASK LEANNE MANNNNN
Cheryl the daryl says:
i'm doing chinese now
Cheryl the daryl says:
urgh
Cheryl the daryl says:
uhhhhhhh
Bruised. says:
IM DOING LA
Cheryl the daryl says:
OH
Cheryl the daryl says:
hahahahahah
Cheryl the daryl says:
then what're you asking us for!
Bruised. says:
lANG ARTS
Bruised. says:
NOT LAHHH
Cheryl the daryl says:
OH!!!!
Cheryl the daryl says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Cheryl the daryl says:
omg this is so retarded
Bruised. says:
hahaha!!!!

school was boring today:(

my mum really needs to visit a psychiatrist. i will confirm that further.

she has gone out to buy my chinese shou ce and textbook because i didn't bring them home. why? "no cannot. you must study." i said "i can bring it home on monday to study" she said.

"no cannot, too long"

eh bloody hell am i having a test on tuesday or something? does it matter when i study. i just need to study!

oh well, have to save up money for a psychiatrist then.

VALENTINE'S DAY! :D and soundcheckD:

thought soundcheck was okayish. at least i thought our section were quite okay, not as bad as i expected. which was good!:D except the first time we played it through, that was horrible. IMPROVEMENTS TO BE MADE!

SECTION DATE! went to pepperlunch with the full trombone section! FINALLY! been such a long time since we had section outing! went shopping a bit. was kinda fun, until my mum pms-ed and called me.

i ate up all my valentine's day cookies, chocolates and sweets. serious sore throat now.

had pw meeting on friday. COMPLETED OUR FULL 32 BAR MELODY! I FEEL SO ACHIEVED. talked about weird stuff before falling asleep. woke up at 7.20am. rushed like mad to band. was 5 minutes late:/

i have a sore throat now.

FEETOH I WANT TO KILL YOU. I WILL. I REALLY WILL. DON'T PUSH IT. ONE DAY I MAY JUST STICK A STICK THROUGH YOUR FREAKING MOUTH. OR I MAY JUST SQUEEZE YOU TO DEATH. I WILL NOT FEED YOU.

gahhhh WHY FEETOH WHY! I LOVED YOU! YOU WERE HAPPY TO ESCAPE FROM THAT DREADED PET SHOP! AND YOU KEPT CRAWLING ON MY HAND. AND ONCE I PUT YOU IN MY CAGE YOU DECIDE TO IGNORE ME. WHEN I PAT YOU, YOU SQUEAK. WHEN I PUT MY FINGER FOR YOU TO SNIFF FIRST YOU BITE IT.

WHY FEETOH WHY! I'M TRYING TO BE A GOOD OWNER BUT YOU HATE ME! WHY FEETOH WHY! I MAY JUST BLOW MY TROMBONE IN YOUR FACE AND MAKE YOU DEAF! OR MAYBE STUFF YOU IN MY TROMBONE BELL AND THEN BLOW YOU OUT.

WHY FEETOH WHY.

gahhhhhhhhhh:/ how sadistic. why feetoh why!

on a happy-er note, had hydroponics! FINALLY. paired with ada. again. ada isn't happy. especially with what happened when we teamed up for home ec last year:( I DIDN'T MEAN TO NOT KNOW HOW TO HOLD A KNIFE OR SLICE CUCUMBERS! AT LEAST I KNOW HOW TO GRIND!:D so i will prove you wrong ada and do my hydroponics well!

BAND TOMORROW! i have a swollen upper lip

what a sucky day. all thanks to feetoh.

haven't been blogging. well actually i have, but:

wesingwedancewetohhhhhh.blogspot.com

am i advertising or what. tohhhhhh..

I GOT A NEW HAMSTER! named it feetohhhhhhh. how nice! feetohhhhhh is still sleeping. i love it! it's like budweiser! the hamster who died of heart attack or something.

okay so stuff that has happened:

SATURDAY BAND EXCHANGE WITH XINMIN. i thought they owned us. wait i didn't think. they DID own us. their trombone section. *gasps* okay so now at least i know what kind of trombone sound i need to achieve. i never got that. but they have 3 sec 4s, 2 sec 3s and 1 sec 2. which is not fair cause we have 3 sec 2s, 1 sec 3, 1 sec 4. "gary you better go wear a skirt" :P

i had tuition after that. super boring two hours wasted.

BOUGHT MY SCOREBOOK! the 100 love songs thing. which looked pretty nice. it was under the category of "Wedding and Romance" :/

so i've started playing the piano. again.

I BOUGHT MYSELF A BARBIE DOLLL! i love barbie dolls:D especially when it's $2 and comes from the provision shop with only one shoe like cinderella.

so i got: owned, a scorebook, a barbie doll and a hamster:D

AND a throat infection. that explains why i'm blogging and not in school. i hope it doesn't get better. i have a feeling it already is. damn i need that mc. my throat infection is BAD i tell you. EVIL. IT KILLS.

i shall swear to do my homework so john teo wouldn't pick on me. i got picked on badly today. how annoying. i had nice, nice dars chocolate from adila during geog:D chocolate!

WHY IS SONG DEDICATION SO EXPENSIVE.

I PASSED MY MATH TEST! FIRST TIME IN A LONG, LONG TIME! when mrs tan said 30-40% failed, i thought oh wait i KNEW i was that 30-40%. i'm always bottom 5, hello would i be the 60% who didn't?

BUT I PASSED! I GOT A 17!! why am i so happy, i don't know. I PASSEDDDDDD! i should've studied for it. but that's good considering i forgot to study for it. i mean, how'd you study for math? until i realised there were tons of worksheets undone.

adila failed and is very demoralised.:( that was like me in sec 1.

i have just relit my fire for westlife and ant and dec:D how wrong does that sound.

ran 4 rounds around the track for pe. 4:20! WHOOO! improvement! time to pace myself i guess. did the 4x50 thing. i can imagine how my primary school coach would be disappointed in me when she sees me run. that's why i don't like running anymore unless necessary.:(

WE GET TO DO HYDROPONICS ON TUESDAY! YAYYY!

we sing, we dance and we tohhh. hahahahaha.

"Think about the world you live in" ms chow, 5th february 2009, lang arts class.

super funny.an emotional ms chow and her pissedness with the letter and PROPAGANDA! ah yes, i have propaganda homework to do. glad i remembered that!

some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.

I AM SO GONNA CUT MY HAIR! SHORT AND SPIKY HAIR! i'll look weird, but it's fun! having the same hairstyle as your section mate! what a corny, lame joke. like how 2gy is! CORNY AND LAME.

probs gonna do it during valentine's with leanne. GEL, GEL, GEL!



my feet are tired from standing up on the bus, mrt, and bus and walking again. and sectionals. i was flushed. seriously, my face was so red from the heat.



sectionals was okay. felt like jbf again. three of us and emily clapping the rhythm. frustrated with my low G flat.



HAD SECTIONALS WITH THE JUNIORS! emily THE FUTURE SL and i was just there kaypoh-ing. but sometimes i talked a little too much and and told myself to shut up and that emily was the sl here. valerie, genevieve, wang yun and lynn are their names! i think they're nice. really, really nice. haven't talked to all of them. but wang yun has this explosive really loud good sound that can only last for two counts. genevieve has this muffled constipated sound.valerie's okayish. lynn is squeezing too much but she occasionally gets the right sound.

really fun! they must talk more. but not like how leanne, wy and i talk. just talk more, i guess. i love being a senior!

exchange with xinmin on saturday:/

my mood's spoilt. i did want to blog about stuff like HOW I LOVED THE GEOG TEST. i've never had so much fun doing a test, surprisingly. and how perverted NURIN ADILA is. we were laughing our asses off with hevina during bio.

but band spoilt it all. well at least the last 30 minutes of it. now i know how 30 minutes can affect your previous efforts to play well.

'rubbish from the trombones'. i admit we were super distracted. and we were rubbish. it sucks getting called rubbish by mr tan but it sucks even more when you know you weren't rubbish all throughout.

i actually thought we started out really well. better than usual at least. perhaps everyone was in a band mood. i thought we sounded pretty good. then i got distracted and started talking to janine non-stop.

how demoralising is it to be called rubbish. i don't hear anything even when we play well. nothing at all.

OH WELL. BE LESS DISTRACTED NEXT BAND PRAC. i really need to talk less. i'm on the way there! i look back at how noisy and loud the trombone section was during junior band and i look at us now and i feel satisfied. so i guess i just have to keep working harder.

bio lesson's are finally fun. how sick am i. PRACTICAL LAB LESSONS! hahahahahahha. wednesday's gonna rock. I HAVE NO STAYBACK! no tuition, no band, no piano class NO NOTHING.

time to slack.

SCHOOL WAS GOOD TODAY!

i paid attention throughout the WHOLE of bio. well not the whole of bio. about half. MORE than half. i paid attention through almost half of math.

HUUUUUUGE IMPROVEMENT!

had art. chloe and i did random shit square paintings. which i thought was rather nice, but razak said we did it kinda wrongly. damn disappointed, arghhh.

went to waffletown with molly, jessica, xinmin, mary and siva. was jessica's birthday. i got a treate from molly though. kinda full. then went for tuition.

I AM BACK HOME! i love jodi picoult books. i finally got back into the habit of reading. at least there's something worth reading! eunice lent me a few good books from her bookshelf so i'm reading them. she bought me this "Change of Heart" book by jodi picoult. i thought her other books were better. yeah so at least i've got stuff to read.

i have MATH AND GEOG TEST TOMORROW! :O:O:O i think i would do well for half of geog, the half i studied. that half i studied, i studied really well. i think.. math? as usual. prepared to not do well. MENTAL BLOCK.

square paintings went wrong:(

i'm bored. had church, ate with the bs group. had bs. now i'm studying for geog.

i actually feel satisfied and achieved! i've memorised all the capitals and where all the countries are located. hopefully i won't forget. geog is useless. who cares about where Istanbul or Rio de Janeiro or Islamabad's located.