i'm in a much better mood now:D so i shan't swear or cry. cause the teacher's day concert was great.

and the bhangra dance went better than anyone in sy expected:D although we didn't get any positioning. the teachers were awesome on stage with the instructor. especially that teaser, mr teo. :S

the dance competition "you think you can dance... meh?" they did the funniest dance moves and the nicest songs, like "we go together"

the choir was good. string ensemble was good. THAT SOLO GIRL WAS GOOODGOOOOD! the one who sang music of the night is i'm not wrong, along with the you raise me up one.

so yes, besides being a little fucked up today with my previous post, i think i'm fine now!:D

i hate my current seating position. i don't know why, it's the same, but i hate it. all yolanda and i did was move to behind christine and esther. but i hate it. i abhore it. i detest it. i fucking hate it.

i don't know why either? i just feel so fucking extra. and i'm sorry about all the swearing but yes, this is what i do when i'm angry.

christine, rachel goh, rachel ang and people would be in one corner, the moment mrs tan gave us free time. yolanda would immediately rush somewhere else, like to huifen or something. and it's not like i can't join in christine and gang.

i can, but why can't i? i feel so sensitive and self-conscious around them. i feel like they would give me weird stares and hateful ones, too. and i don't know why. because they wouldn't. but i keep thinking they would so i don't dare open my mouth and talk.

so in the end, i end up in my own desk writing shit. and i envy the rest talking. but yet, i refuse to open my mouth and take the initiative?

i wonder why do i feel so self-conscious, i feel like a weirdass around them. which i know i'm weird, but it just worsens things. i'm really starting to think i'm weird, not weird weird but eccentric weird. the eccentric type people just don't want to mix with after awhile.

i remember my bro saying this, "At the start of the year, everybody's nice to everybody. but after awhile, you would find out who are the assholes no one wants to mix with" i somehow think that refers to me. in way, but not completely.

i just wish i would feel less awkward infront of christine, rachel ang and stuff. i just don't want to talk too much, somehow.

and i got so frustrated, when i was about to open the door and sheryl came along i asked "is the door open?" she said yah and i pushed the door open wildly to find it wasn't open and i just shouted "Fffffff..." and went off. i couldn't swear loudly, could i.

and my mum fucking doesn't allow me to go back to primary school. i said i wanted to go back, calling my friend. she fucking said "you're not going anywhere you know" it's not like she said "can you not go?" she commanded me, saying that i'm not going anywhere.

you know how much i've sacrificed to study? while they my section goes for section outings, i don't. why? i have tuition.

why can't i go out on friday? i have to study most of the time.
why can't i go out twice a week? mummy will be unhappy. or at least we will quarrel before i can go out.
why can't i go for section outing during the holidays?exams are coming.
why can't i go back to primary school? she says 'you're not like them. you don't have time like them. and you're not in a school like them. besides, you'll lose contact sooner or later"
why can't i go out today?study!

and she just doesn't appreciate wth i'm doing. she told me not to go out for the past few weeks when i wanted to, i agreed. normally i could kick up a fuss about why i can't. and like today, i'm not fucking going back to primary school and i don't kick up a fuss. and she has just fucking called me, and says i'm already starting work late. i'm supposed to start at 4pm, and end at 6pm before going to tuition.

she made me craft out a fucking study plan. and because of that fucking study plan, i had to sleep at 11.30pm last night. and i'm a pig who needs a lot of sleep so i need to sleep by 10.30. but she made me do my work till 11.15pm. and she's freaking out about my exams when i'm not.

she doesn't acknowledge my constant efforts to improve. she doesn't acknowledge my effort to be more obedient. she fucking brushes it off. "you're going to lose contact with them anyway" what fucked up sentence is that?

she always says, at the end of the day, you'll be happy when you see what you've achieved and what they've achieved. does she fucking want me to become a person who thinks like this: "i don't need friends. i don't need to go out. all i need to do is study. at the end of the day, they have all the fun and do worse than me. i do better than them. so i shan't bother about not going out. i don't need fun"

she thinks "having a life" is going out with friends once a month and going out with family for dinner during weekends. she was a fucking nerd in secondary school. so she doesn't know what's normal, she thinks she's normal. so she wants me to be like her. no friends, no life. and she thinks that's normal. that's fucking not.

i'm not a fucking nerd. there's nothing wrong with nerds, but i'm not a nerd. so don't make me one.

the moment i came home, i got so bloody frustrated, i just shouted swear words like 'fuck', 'what the hell', 'bloody hell', 'fucking idiot', 'bitch', 'fucker', 'fucked up', 'fucking hell', 'what the fuck'.

and then i just cried. it's just everything that's been supressed. extra-ness in class, awkwardness, eccentricness, controlledness, and everything!

i mean i'm sorry for swearing so much, but i can't help it. i don't swear that much normally. i try not to anymore, but what the hell can i do when i can't go out, i can't see my primary school friends, i can't do anything fun, and i can't have a life.

i don't even go out once a week anymore. or maybe once in two weeks. i didn't go out last week, or this week, or i think last last week. WITH FRIENDS.

i don't think anybody would bother asking me out anymore. cause the answer would be, a fucking no. it's not like i wanted it.

i know i've to study hard. i do want to study hard. i do want to do well. and i do want to improve. but i don't want to be kiasu till history chapter 1 must read through all the assessment books. bloody hell, i already told her it's a chapter 1. i don't need to study all the chapter 1's of the subjects so thoroughly. "don't take risks. even if you want to take, i don't want" so who cares if she doesn't want? this is my test. my results. i know what's going to be tested, i fucking know what's not.

okay i think there's a never-ending thing to this. and the more i type, the more i'd swear. i will promise not to swear tomorrow. cause tomorrow's gonna be a happy day. alright cheryl? don't swear.

haha! i've never been so happy this week! the morning started of bad. i entered the classroom, to find my place infested with ants. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN. and yesterday, i had to clear my bag 4 times cause there were like 30 ants crowding inside, CHEWING MY WESTLIFE DVD!CHEWING!

so yolanda and i ended up sitting behind christine and esther. which is a pleasant change!:D:D and i talked more than usual. darn, christine.

rachel hau and i kept making fun of ms kavita, ms sharon and mr teo. oh and ms lee and mr tee too! i felt so mean. but mostly, Arrogant. I spent like half the time talking about Arrogant. And i was in hysterics due to the stupid mosquito sting stuck INSIDE my skin! i kept screaming and screaming cause i didn't want to have a mosquito sting that looks like a mole!

i've never laughed so much in an hour. And during music, we had to write a short story of 100 words, using as many song titles as we can. So this is what cristy, mun, rachel and i wrote:

long long ago, i asked my girl, "Do you love me? You must love me. Please let me be your angel." She said

oh wait, shit i forgot. and then we had to create questions and use song titles as an answer. So here are some funny ones:
What were you in your past life? Unfaithful(Rihanna)
How is your life now? Tragedy(Bee Gees)
What are you doing? Something Right(Westlife)

oh and for the 100 essay i insisted on lots of westlife songs and covers. like you light up my life, world of our own and flying without wings. :D:D:D

i just finished watching my westlife dvd again. i'm back on the forum. and then i'm going to mug.
once again christine, thank you for the tagboard! loving it!

`what a lovely way to byrne:D

haha! i got my westlife "greatest hits tour" dvd! finally! my mum was in a good mood:D so we went to orchard cineleisure then to heron. she went to shop for a bag while i went to HMV. they didn't have the turnaround tour, so i bought greatest hits. IT'S AMAZING GREAT! i do miss brian, although i had to admit it..

i'm listening to "Allow Us to Be Frank". yunru gave it to me cause her sister wanted to throw it away. but knowing i'm a westlife fan, she gave it to me!! YAYYAYAYYAYAY!!! i'm listening to the part where nicky's singing!

i keep going on the westlife forum, i'm so distracted. cheryl, you need to stop it. stop getting addicted.

it seems like i just keep getting more and more addicted.. one day, i posted 30 posts. lynz is worse, she's only been on for two months and she has 3333 posts. i just spotted that an hour ago while talking to her.

and i must thank christine for making me a tagboard, which really matches. cause all along i was lazy. but since she's bothered to, i shall use it!! finally, cheryl has a tagboard. isn't that good.

Rachel Hau and I spent half of geog lesson laughing at Arrogant. what a nice name. she breaks the chain of laughter rachel hau and i are having. stupid Arrogant.

i feel frustrated! i can never keep up with lang arts lesson on "the giver". we were on the importance of individual identities, memories and feelings. there was the example of Caleb, and it showed how the name meant more than the person itself, and for Newborns, their presence is denied due to uncertainty. And the real person after awhile is not recognised. okay, that's not very organised.

but just as i was about to get it, it all started moving again. ms choo finally came to class today!! :D:D:D I MISS HER!!!! yes, but it gave me a shock. but i love her:D

i'm going to post some pictures now. on the westlife forum. bye!

hmmm, how should i describe how i felt when i received my bio paper? YAY!

35/50, i went nuts. yay it's a 70%. i thought i deserved it, i was well-prepared, i studied hard. EIGHT HOURS!

and then to realise that more than half the class got above 40, i just thought to myself, yet another disappointment. it seems to be disappointment after disappointment. when i don't work hard, i obviously don't do well. when i work hard, the rest work hard-er. and so i still end up at the bottom.

when oh when will i learn to be kiasu and work oh so hard? i'm so pissed by the fact that i got one of the lowest in class even with studying! but nevermind about that.

i hope mr tee will keep to his word and the band room would be open in the mornings so i can go and practice! *fingers crossed*. i really need to be EXTREMELY sure that big fun doesn't go wrong and my lips don't get tired. and i must have much better articulation/tonguing/pitching. blue ridge,too.

I'm well crazy over Nicky Byrne. Even he calls himself nicky, so it's not an act cute nickname people give to him. He rarely says nicholas. and he speaks a lil' tad bit of french!:D

And my msn display name is "What a lovely way to byrne" which is actually what a lovely way to burn. it's taken from the song "fever" by i have no idea who but a pretty good cover is done by michael buble though, although it doesn't even come close to the original. that song's talking about how hot a certain chic is, and that guy goes head over heels. like "you give me fever. fever in the morning, fever all through the night"

so i guess it matches eh?

Nicholas Bernard Adam James Byrne, what a long name!! and i recently started getting active back on the westlife official forum. the people there are nice, so i decided to join in again. it's been one day, and i've had 41 posts. there's like this mad person who has 300 000+ posts or something!

I realised fear of rejection can actually engulf a person. Not referring to me, of course:D:D

shall i talk about band first? there's nothing much. we bloody spent i don't know how long on blue ridge saga.

and apparently, the trombone section has a real bad balance and we aren't using our brains, is what mr desouza said about us. and mr tee said he would open the band room during the morning! so those people who go to school early can practise, i don't mind! i wanna practice! i really need to ensure that my lips don't get tired throughout the whole of big fun.

i might just go to school earlier. say, 6.35am. so i have like 40mins to practice. but i know i'll end up slacking. i'll just see how. i brought home my trombone. i swore to practice everyday. i hope i do!:D

my bro's not going for jbf!! NOOOOO. he must go! i want him to hear my first actual concert. besides the stupid "My First Band Concert" which we played nursery rhymes. jbf is an actual concert in an actual concert hall. not the stupid khoo audi.

had rehearsal in church today. 2pm-6pm. my bro and i reached there at 2pm. to realise there was nobody there at all:S:Sso we went to ask yu yao where everybody was, he said relax lah, it's only 2pm. we were like, yeah, it's 2pm. he said it started at 3pm!!! :O:O

so we jammed for that 1hr. me on the piano, bro on the guitar. choir was so-so. started crapping with abigail, shimin and ahma.

i bought a new dress to wear for tomorrow. i'm going for an act3 concert tomorrow, too. i'm bored now. just finished the giver.

this really is a no-life weekend. i'm going to watch a movie on wednesday!! with my mum... but nevermind. FINALLLLYYYYY! :D:D

okay let me correct my post yesterday. mrs lee isn't a petty idiot. she just takes things too seriously and has no sense of humour. or is that worse than being a petty idiot? well in my opinion it isn't lol.

so anw, how did band go today? terrible. atrocious. horrible. because i couldn't play my big fun. i could, but halfway through my lips would just get terribly tired and i would just stop playing. and then play again. then stop.

mr desouza's VERY unhappy with the trombone section. because apparently, we talk excessively much. but the first few times were all like "you cracked! our articulation sucked! play louder!" and stuff like that. not really talking! until the later part of band.

SARAH! EXTREMELY BIG MOUTH. i saw some instructor in the band room when i entered. it looked like mr tan. so i gasped, and said "omg it's..." and then i saw carefully, it wasn't mr tan. so i was like "chey. i really thought it was..."

then sarah said "who? marcus ah. ohoh, thinking of marcus"

and mr desouza gave me a glance before continuing. i hope he didn't hear too carefully. or he'll be thinking i've a boyfriend.

SARAH LIM, i do not have a boyfriend. and marcus is definitely not my boyfriend. i wouldn't get a boyfriend. i do not have a boyfriend. marcus is not my boyfriend. my boyfriend isn't marcus. i will not get a boyfriend.

glad that's out.

piano exam sucked. i couldn't screw up any exam more. lazy to talk about it. eating chicken rice for dinner now. ciao.

one word. mrs lee is the pettiest idiot in the world. oh wait, that's 9 words! but key word: petty/idiot

i snatched xinmin's wallet after recess today, back in the class. so she did the same ol' "i'm-going- to-take-your-wallet-so-you'll-return-mine" tactic, which didn't work. so we were flashing each other's ezlink card the the whole class, going to each desk.

then, when i wanted to run out, i saw mrs lee approaching so i went back to my seat(hah, fast reaction!) but xinmin was right next to the teacher's desk. so she left the card on the table and ran off. when mrs lee asked what's that, she said that she found it. and mrs lee believed her and asked her to give it to the general office.

and when xinmin just went back, and i started laughing, she knew that xinmin was joking. and then, she wanted to talk to xinmin.

she actually scolded xinmin! saying that the joke went overboard, and it even went to the teacher. and that two of us were having a laugh was fine, but why drag the teacher in? and that taking her wallet without permission can be considered as theft. !?!?!?!? theft? what kind of shit is that, doesn't she know what's having fun??

and she said that although it's a joke, to her, it's a deceit, a lie. why the hell must she take things so seriously, and can't just laugh along with us? she counts is as a deceit? like wth, she seriously needs to get her brain checked.

so.. nevermind. just talked to marcus. through msn. because he smsed me, and my phone hung.. again! MWAHAHAHAHA! MY NEW PHONE HAS ARRIVED THIS AFTERNOON. FINALLY!

oh and my old phone is still switching on and off by itself now. amazing..

i love nicky byrne. along with shane filan. :D:D:D shanefilan, the moshi monster, apparently, is feeling happy. wow, looks like shanefilan can last a long time without food! 2 weeks in fact, go shanefilan!

today was uber fun. laughed like mad. as usual.

During CE i had blu tack with me. and guess what i did? i stretched it so long and pasted it on two ends of my cheeks. then it broke into two, so one on my left cheek, and one on my right. rachel hau said it looks like some mole with hair. I AGREE! lol i was taking the piss out of myself the whole time, laughing at myself, along with rachel hau.

Yolanda and i were being random. all the while. omg Kiran, Yolanda and I kept laughing at Yuki's abscence while i did the "give me your power, the rising sun!" thing, imitating yuki.

Then Yolanda had a basketball match :S I went to sit with Belinda, Sarah, Joey and yi ling. Belinda did the tamil accent, sarah did the american one, and i did the british one. laughed so much. just kept being random.

i remember sarah saying a day or two ago, "dead proud to be an american" due to the olympics. she'd be prouder is she was british:D although they don't win medals in the olympics.

X FACTOR IS STARTING IN A DAY!!!! I CAN'T WAIT! AUDITIONS ARE THE BEST! well not really, they're about the same as the actual live shows. hoping to spot someone like rhydian. oh wait, then again, rhydian is impossible to be like. he's too much of a legend!! :D:D

Met up with Fiorina, the first time in ages. we laughed and laughed for consecutively 2 hours, my cheeks starting aching. we just kept talking about old times, present times. laughing our arses off at the lamest shit. It was really fun. Can't wait for next next friday!:D

Going for tuition now.. and my phone just got fixed..

kian's melting my heart, along with mark.

I started the year loving Shane and Nicky, hating Mark(since he's gay) and Kian (since he can't sing and is ugly). but now i seem to be loving kian. he doesn't look that bad, really. Charming? I don't know, but one things for sure, he can't really sing.

And Mark can sing, and he's quite handsome at certain angles. CERTAIN angles lmao.

SC IS GOING CRAZY OVER MICHAEL PHELPS!!!!!
near the end of recess, there was the swimming finals of i think 100m butterfly? there were like approx. 100 sc girls crowding around the telly watching him swim and screaming. i was one of them:D along with cristy and cheng mun or whatever.

in class, there's more than 15 people in love with him. including me! although i do prefer ant and dec and westlife.

ohoh, i think yao ming is cute:D he can actually speak proper american english! i thought all along he just played for Houston Rockets in the NBA. but he's real cute! especially in commercials. and he actually sweared. he got fouled for the third time and was pissed, so he shotued "FUCK!" and then another time, he scored and shouted "you can't fucking stop me"

LMAO!! yao ming is so cute. a cute giant:D

Christine created a michael phelps fan club. i joined it. my dp currently is michael phelps. although i'm sure soon enough, it'll be back to westlife. it hasn't been on ant and dec for a long time, tho.

I'M GOING BACK TO OLGC TOMORROW WITH FIORINA! I CAN'T WAIT. BEEN A LONG WAIT!

oh wait, correction from the previous post, it was 14/40:S

I simply love Celine Dion. lol okay, that was random. i was listening to I Surrender by Celine Dion. love her, better than Kelly Clarkson's american idol version:D IT'S A MUST TO LISTEN TO!

I learnt many things in the past few days. i learnt to be more organised, because i realised my life's a mess. well, not my life. but my homework, activities. i just keep forgetting stuff. got myself really pissed, along with my mum.

i finally experienced the feeling of failing. i got 14/30 for the bio revision! I wasn't really gutted, it's not counted and plus, 45% of the class failed. which is 18 out of 38.

BUT! i've decided to work hard! i'm finally listening in bio lesson, and finally finally! taking notes. thank god for failing. lol that sounds stupid. but yes, i'm happy that i've failed! whoo!

But it makes no difference, i fell asleep in math class. To the extent where i was drooling :S. can't help it! it's a habit.

YES! there's band tomorrow. i can finally touch my trombone. after a week. and i can finally bring the trombone book of chart hits from 06-07. so i can finally learn how to play bad day, unfaithful and like i don't know, many more?

I wish there was a book filled with oldies. Like the classics, rock and pop. would be simply brilliant. like "Tears in Heaven", "Heaven", "Right here waiting", "Wonderful Tonight" etc. including queen! that's the only rock band that i like anw. oh wait, there's guns n roses!

yeah i'm heading on to watch more westlife videos now. I surrender is a must listen to song! AND "SUCK IT FRANCE" too. That guy there speaks exactly like my brother!

i shall be blogging about three days now.

FRIDAY. was the best day of the week, really.

had national day celebrations. Harvard Dins and Tonics came!! I didn't know who they were, but they were AMAZZZZINGGGGG. loved them! would've gone to their concert if it wasn't for the YPSB concert.

i hated the national day celebrations besides harvard dins and tonics and the three choir soloists singing "The Prayer" and "Time to Say Goodbye". because i was all alone sitting by myself. hated it. absolutely hated it.

Then, had handover. it sucked. had to change into the band uniform in 15 minutes, and i didn't know how to put on a tie. so i had to ask every stranger i met to help me put on my tie, none of them knew. except one. which took a long time but in the end got it right. listened to mrs neoh's speech, 'speech'. indirectly scolding us. she said she had three points of contention, as if. it was three points to scold us on. irritating and fat.

then, went to plaza sing!!!!!!! WHICH WAS THE BEST. THE BEST BEST BEST. sarah, kaijun, shuqing, leanne, wenyuan and I went there. but we took about an hour. because i forgot to bring my concert tickets and had to ask aunty nur to pass it to me so i met her at dhoby ghaut mrt station after trying to find her for like 15 minutes. And i broke the cup Wenting gave me as a handover gift. and i lost the pillow Wenhui gave me for the handover gift. I'm a sucker.

Then, we wanted to catch a movie. I WANTED DARK KNIGHT. but leanne and kaijun didn't. they wanted red cliff. so in the end we didn't catch any at all. and then we went to gelare. i wanted my mango fizz. but they didn't have. so i had some stupid drink. which i didn't like, mixed with vanilla ice cream. which i didn't like either. so i hated the drink. and i felt thirstier after drinking the drink.

and then i went down on one knee in front of sarah. for fun. all the boys upstairs started staring at us. kaijun and wenyuan waved at them. i didn't bother looking. so it started from there.

Kaijun insisted she saw a really hott guy. and so everyone got into it, and started following him. and i was following them. not that i cared. cared. not care.

then, kaijun dared me to go up to him and ask for his number. i was okay, in exchange for a free drink. so i ran up to him and said "Hi, can i have your number?"

AND I DIDDDDDDD!! kaijun said that she loved me. but in the end, kaijun didn't sms him. i did. until now. i'm still smsing him.

Oh wait, i did get my free drink. and that guy's marcus. nice guy, really. from HCI.

So yeah, friday was good. the concert was good, i fell asleep halfway through.

Saturday was chek jawa. Interesting, too lazy to blog now. gonna leave it at there.

BIRTHDAY WISH LIST:

i decided to have one, since i have so many things to buy. almost all from ebay. thank god for ebay! and i'm gonna buy them for myself! or probably my mum's gonna buy them for me:D or i'll wait for next year, i don't mind. but these are the things i must get within these two birthdays.

1. Westlife key ring
2. Westlife croke park DVD(when it comes out)
3. Rhydian's CD(when it comes out)
4. Ant and Dec's Saturday Night Takeaway DVD
5.Westlife Turnaround tour DVD(if i can find it, or.. ebay!!)
6. Ant and Dec biography.(new one out on october)
7.Alien Autopsy DVD
8. Ant and Dec mug

I WILL BUY THOSE! and the musts are ant and dec biography, westlife croke park dvd, ant and dec's saturday night takeaway and rhydian's cd.

gonna start saving up. i can't believe i'm actually pampering myself on my birthday lol.

poem analysis of my papa's waltz. i received it today and i realised i got it TOTALLY wrong. ms choo just put there "please read again".

My Papa's Waltz
The whiskey on your breath
Could make a small boy dizzy;
But I hung on like death:
Such waltzing was not easy.

We romped until the pans
Slid from the kitchen shelf;
My mother's countenance
Could not unfrown itself.

The hand that held my wrist
Was battered on one knuckle;
At every step you missed
My right ear scraped a buckle.

You beat time on my head
With a palm caked hard by dirt,
Then waltzed me off to bed
Still clinging to your shirt.

Ms choo insisted on her point that is was child abuse. I know it does seem so, it has many points. like "the hand that held my wrist" WRIST. why wrist? deliberately to be painful, because grabbing the wrist is more painful than the hand, or was he just too drunk to realise.

She said under any circumstance, a father would not allow his child to get hurt no matter how drunk he was. He must be insane "at every step you missed my right ear scraped a buckle", to let his child go through such hurt.

I beg to differ. Why then, did he "hung on like death"? And this poem describes it as such a regular thing, his father coming home drunk. if it has been so regular, most normal people would find a way to escape from the pain. but why didn't he? why did he insist on clinging on like death. and when he was "waltzed off to bed" he was still "clinging on" to his father's "shirt". why not let go and run to the bed since his father is already sending him to bed. why still cling on? obviously it isn't child abuse! he also said "such waltzing was not easy", then why do you still "waltz" with him till the end and refuse to let go?

Ms choo said that waltz is used as a euphemism. nonononono, i don't think so.

Question (c) was how does the author make us sympathize with the personna. She said that the unbelievable thing was that the author did not express any sense of hatred towards his father. Which made it so saddening. Either he did not know it was child abuse or he was resigned to it.

So in the end i just gave up and realised that my analysis was lousy. It is true that he used very violent words "romped", "scraped" "battered" and etc.

so oh well. i just hope i don't get the whole thing wrong in tomorrow's Lang Arts test. finally studying for bio! I'm HAPPPYYYYYYYYYY!

for god's sake cheryl! why the fuck is it so hard for you to bloody concentrate for a freaking half an hour then go on the comp? why can you spend hours on the comp and yet not touch your books.

tomorrow's lang arts and bio test. i haven't studied for both. nothing to study for lang arts. bio? LOTS. and i'm just plainly lazy. why is it so hard for me to get some fucking discipline?!?! WHY.

and now i'm listening to PJ and Duncan- O.U.R. Radio Rocks. pj and duncan, what losers. compared to the ant and dec they are now? big difference. big, big difference! the ant and dec know has been watched by half the english nation at least once. and won NTA's 7 times. 2007 claimed three awards, despite the freaking vote-in scandal.

see! i'm distracted again. get a grip! don't let it slip! lol, that sounds like some pj and duncan song, so trashy.but i'm trashy! oh wait, no i'm not.

okay, so cheryl. CALM DOWN. listen to soothing proper music. westlife. don't think about the autobiography you ordered online without your mum's permission. don't think about the workload you have which is due on wednesday. and don't think about how you're going to get ant and dec's biography coming out in october, cause it's months away and you will get it somehow. don't think about when's the croke park dvd gonna come out, because when it does, it does, and you will get it too. don't think about where you get so much money to..

HOLY SHIT FUCK. TOMORROW'S MY BRO'S BIRTHDAY! SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. IIIIIIIIIIII FFFFFFFFFOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTT!!!

i totally forgot!!!!!!!!!!! and he gave me a necklace the last year for MY birthday! and a lovely, lovely touch-the-heart kind of handwritten card. and i cried! and he brought me to the arcade and showed me what fun i could have with $15.

oh god, and what am i going to give him? hell, i feel guilty now. i'm going to write a card tomorrow!
so last minute.
but yes, i will do it.
because i love my brother!:D

my mum had two free singfest tickets. she said that all the directors in her company get one free ticket. and her assistant was super suck-up to her, so she reserved two for her. and then my mum didn't want it, and her assistant insisted that she take it. and my mum said she didn't want to go at all, then her assistant said to pass it to me or my bro, we would defo want to go.

thank god for my mum's assistant! my mum said that nokia's her client and nokia had something got to do with the singfest i think. so she gets free tickets!

went with rachel ang. it was SUUUUPER UUUUBER hot. the queue itself was 45 mins. i sweat like crazy, and then rachel ang and i squeezed our way to the front. all the way there!

it started off with "jamie scott & the town". jamie scott was good, just that he didn't manage to get the crowd moving. and rachel ang lost her way back after throwing the nachos in the bin. so i had to go and get her. and we squeezed more to the front:D:D

next up was one republic! whoohoo! they were the best there,really. minutes before they appeared the whole crowd was standing!! screaming and screaming and screaming. they were awesome, and funny! so that's a bonus!

Panic!at the disco was good, too. not too bad live, but lost to onerepublic in terms of skill.

then rachel ang and i had to go, didn't see jason mraz or the pussycat dolls or alicia keys. shame. i thought pussycat dolls were trashy. heard alicia keys was good!

loved it, especially when it's free:D