oh god i'm watching the debate between obama and mccain. it's interesting how mccain loves to start by saying how sad he is for kennedy being in the hospital last night. great way to start a debate:P obama shot at mccain lol.

yucks now i sound like some political freak. i shan't be that. i shall talk about something else as mccain is talking right now lol.

RHYDIAN'S NEW ALBUM IS COMING OUT ON THE 24th NOVEMBER TOO! omg 24th november must be a great day. it's gonna be the best day of the year!

wondering what to get for christine's birthday. hmmmmm..

CROKE PARK CONFIRMED RELEASE DATE: 24th NOVEMBER!!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO! yesyesyes!!! finally, after long debates in the wl forum if there's even gonna be a dvd,after so much doubts and suspicions, the lads haven't let us down!!!


YESYESYES. okay i know i have math and chinese exam on monday, but i can't help it alright. IT'S WESTLIFE! who can? :P

i'm gonna buy it through amazon again. my mum should trust ebay and amazon now cause out of the three things i bought, all of them arrived safely. well, one of them is gonna arrive safely anw. but that's not the point. there shouldn't be any reason why she wouldn't let me order it. worse comes to worst, i've always got my birthday hanging on the bait. or christmas:D

and there's gonna be extras too! finally, there hasn't been any extras for a long time. the wembley one i bought had only one extra. number 1's tour had a stupid hidden extra which is still hidden! along with the greatest hits tour's hidden extra too. wonder why must they have it as hidden. well somebody taught me how to view that hidden extra but i haven't got the time to try it out, i've been studying!

yes, cheryl has been studying:D cause she doesn't want to screw up her chinese, which is supposed to be one of her bett-er subjects.

i'm gonna get that croke park dvd, i swear! and i'm gonna order it on the day of my birthday so hopefully it would come earlier or something lol. well, it wouldn't. but.. so? i still wanna order that.

CHRISTINE'S GONNA GET ME A BRITISH FLAG FOR MY BIRTHDAY! mwahaahahahha. i'm gonna hang it up in my room:P

tomorrow's bio. not exactly very prepared for it. first two exams, first two screw ups and hopefully last two screw ups too.

wan ting is testing me everything right now! thanks! cause 'it's all coming back to me now' (lol, celine dion song) so now i'm clear on circulatory system. although i'm gonna revise later on. she's testing me on cells now.

I WANT MY WESTLIFE CALENDER! dammit, i want it. i want it. i want it. but i want the croke park dvd even worse. and worse still, i heard there's not gonna be a dvd!! how can that be? i mean wth, it is, after all their last concert before they take their one year break. and it's to signify 10 years of westlife. and... there's no dvd?!?!?!?!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. sony bmg can't do this to us!! not happy one bit.

MS CHOO CAME DOWN DURING LANG ARTS YESTERDAY!!whooo! and i didn't fall asleep. at all. i payed attention. through out. damn, she's good:D:D

as much as i like ms lee, cause she's sososo nice, i still prefer ms choo. cause she's sososo good. but i forgot to ask her if we could have remedials with her. dammit! now i've to look for her again. argh, i should've remembered.

better go and mug for bio now! wan ting's still testing me. i don't know half the stuff she's testing. cause i forgot. she's in rgs, so of course she remembers.

oh my god i can't believe how much i screwed the history exam up. i wrote 1 3/4 pages for both SBQ and SEQ. ARGHHHHHHH. when people wrote like 4 pages.

and i emailed ms choo two days ago asking her about some lit analysis thing, she hasn't replied! i just wish she would spend a wee bit more time with us. i know she's busy with the sec 4s, but we're freaking worried here. while cheng mun and i freak out and get annoyed.

I NEED EXTRA REMEDIAL.
i'm going to email ms choo. oh wait, she probably won't reply. i'll have to go look for her in the staff room tomorrow and ask her. the person answering the phone would probably be like 'miss choo's not in the staff room right now'. god, it's always like that. i wonder when am i ever gonna find her.

very, very worried now. cause i'll screw both physics and bio up. along with history. i'm just depending on my lang arts and chinese now. which is so easy to screw up. well, referring to lang arts.

darn it! if only miss choo would come to class once a week or something.

history exam tomorrow. wish me luck, cause i haven't studied chapter 10. or revised the previous 7 chapters. how am i gonna do well? i don't know, but hopefully i'll have the mood to touch my books and do chapter 10 today.

looking at my classmates, people have even finished studying bio and physics. how they do it? i don't know, i just know i can't do it and i'm not gonna do well.

and i'm gonna freak out, i haven't exactly freaked out yet! and i wonder why. oh now i know, cause i got holly and toni's number on the wl forum. i'm full of nonsense/crap and i know that, but i'm simply too madly in love with nicky byrne.

AND I SENT AN EMAIL TO MS CHOO AND SHE DIDN'T REPLY! HOW AM I GONNA PASS MY LITERARY ANALYSIS IF SHE DOESN'T REPLY?!!? lol, overreacting. but i need her to reply!!

i miss my westlife book which i lent to wanting...

i hate bryan, oh so much. KNOBHEAD! KNOBHEAD! left westlife to.. spend more time with your family? my ass. you had a single 2 months after you left westlife, dumb. why didn't you just come clean with the lads from the start? and left them figuring out? and they even 'glorified' you by holding a press conference.

and bryan i suppose your lady isn't much different. she's a bitch and you, a bastard. it's not my fault that the sexiest thing in singapore is the merlion that spits and refuses to shut it's mouth' ? how polite, your first time in singapore you know. stupid delta.

good riddance, westlife are much better without you, bryan, oh wait, it's brian, not bryan, you're no longer a part of westlife so i shan't be saying it as bryan.

fine, i think i got a wee bit too angry there. cause i read the article where delta insulted singapore in an interview. grrrrrrrr! and i'll be as angry too if westlife don't come to singapore in 2010.

gosh, there's history exam in two days and here i am blogging about westlife.

i was thinking today has just got to be the worst day.
in church, during sermon.
i took my handphone out, now i know that's wrong. but i was bored okay. so i kept checking the time, and then i put it in my pocket.

and i didn't lock the keypad. big mistake, big, big mistake. suddenly, i-have-no-idea-what pressed the play button and out belted celine dion's Because You Loved Me. and because i was listening to the songs yesterday, it was on max. volume.

i went holy shit!!!! the pastor started talking louder to drown my music. i tried to stop it, but i couldn't. and it took me about 10 secs to realise that the keypad was locked, somehow. then after like 20 secs then i turned it off.

by the time everybody was staring at me. so i literally hid my face behind abigail's shirt.

can't have been more embarassing.

i spent the whole afternoon after tuition doing my history and bio. oh, and swooning over nicky byrne with my fellow byrnettes:D this love for nicky byrne is 'unbreakable'(westlife song).

whooooohoooo! i'm studying with chloe and kym during recess tomorrow. nothing could be more boring..

okay i've decided that i don't dread going into senior band. wait lemme think, i probably do. but that post was just too emo-ish. and no, i'm not emoing a single bit.

okay so what if i have more than i-have-no-idea-how-many-cause-there's-so-many seniors who hate me, i've still got my section who don't hate me:D and i've got the french horn section. oh wait, corrected, not the french horn section, the french horn JUNIORS. and i've got like more people who don't hate me. among the juniors.

so i don't care if the seniors hate me anymore. well actually i do, but i can't be bothered right now. but it's gonna be hard shutting up and not being clumsy in band. which is practically not being me, but yes, i will live it though with positivity. or whatever you call it, optimism. whatever.(that's a reason why i'm not going to get into 2sy next year)

but i figured out i really wanna get into 2sy, and 3 sy and so on. cause i'm gonna prove to that fucking ugly bimbo wannabe that i'm not an idiot. although i am, i shall work really hard to get into 2sy. and here i am, blogging everyday. going on the westlife forum, going to youtube. oh i have 5 videos! and 4 subscribers! unknown people.

but yeah, so i would love senior band cause i love my section:P

now i know how it feels to really dread something. i've never actually dreaded something. it's just the come-on-get-this-quickly-over-with thing. but now, i'm really dreading going to senior band. leanne used to tell me how she dreaded going to senior band, and i never really understood why. perhaps i have different reasons on why i don't wanna go to senior band, but it's still the same dread.

i actually wonder why i'm so hated among the sec 2's and 3's. not say, very hated. but pretty much. i guess lots of seniors just dislike me for one reason or another. maybe they think i'm stuck up. or snobbish. or nerdy. or attitude problem. or eccentric. or annoying.

yeah it has to be either of those 6. i think i would mostly fall into the category of annoying, for most seniors. can't help it, can i. even chloe knows i'm super annoying.

well i hope seniors just don't read my blog. most of them don't i think, cause i don't think many people have links to my blog. and stuff. and they wouldn't be so free. although i heard they look at chloe's blog and stuff. i hope the seniors wouldn't take an interest in looking at mine:P

yeah and i figured out that i should just shut up in senior band. in junior band, i would mostly be making a fool of myself. either asking the most annoying or dumbest questions or doing the stupidest and lamest shit, ever. but if i ever do that in senior band, i guess most of the seniors would roll their eyes. so the best way would be to shut up, right.

don't ever want to go to senior band:S

this week has just got to be one of the best ever. and i just don't wanna talk about the worst thing that happened this week, cause the worst was seriously the worst.

but let's see how many good things happened this week! i received my westlife autobiography!! it was in perfect condition, and i received it 3-4 days early!:D:D:D

I GOT 130 FOR MY GRADE 5 PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOO! i thought i screwed up really bad by talking back to her. like arguing. and playing the wrong notes in the first piece. 130's a distinction. that's great! although i got 135 last year.

jbf's finally over. well i don't count that as a good thing. but it's a relief. no more worrying about how i'll screw it up or anything like that. i shan't talk about what happened after jbf cause it's just terrible, and i hope i'm forgiven. and not misunderstood.

i found another singaporean westlife fan! her name's wan ting. but she prefers kian. but i must say, kian's growing on me. although nicky and shane's still the best!HA.

there's some gospel rally today. and i'm ushering. yikes, i wonder why did i sign up in the first place. i didn't want to go! but i shan't be such an asshole to not even want to help out. so that's probably why i signed up, i didn't want to be an asshole.

omg i love that westlife autobiography! i respect westlife much more. in the past, i just loved westlife cause they were: DECENT, TALENTED, NICE, FRIENDLY, HUMBLE, GOOD FRIENDS, STUCK AS A BAND FOR 10 YEARS.

now i truly see that commitment and passion they have for the band and their families. and how firm and mature they are. and how decent they are. i shall start quoting!

oh no there's gonna be millions of them.
oh wait, there's so many i can't find them. but that book is simply brilliant. i love it! i've never seen such a boyband before. oh wait, correction, not boyband but pop group:D:D

i did my history! plus lang arts, plus math! WHOOOO! i feel so smart now! i've finally studied, and thank god i have:D

now it's not even feeling guilty. it's feeling very guilty. yes chloe, i'm really over-sensitive.

i'm feeling very afraid now. very, very afraid. i haven't felt like this for a long time. well, afraid isn't the word to describe it. but..

i just went on Facebook. and Nic left me this message, asking how life's going and stuff. hope i've not forgotten her and she heard that i'm in band and all. i.. i don't know how to reply her. it's just really awkward.

it's like one moment i'm hating her, cursing her for screwing up my bro. the next moment i'm missing her. and pitying her. and thinking about her. then it's just i hate that bitch all the way. and now thinking it through again, i really do miss her. i'm not saying i don't like eunice, i love her!! but it's just that nic brought something different. well, she did bring lots of trouble. lots of anger. lots of tears. and all the negative stuff.

but somehow, she was different from eunice. not saying that in a good way, or a bad way. god, i don't make sense.

somehow, i've just been trying not to think about her. but now she's left me this message. i.. don't know what's going through my mind.

haha, i've uploaded beyong the highlands on YouTube! go search for it "scgs junior band- beyond the highlands" i think it's up now, unless it's still processing.

i found somemore desouza pics. oh and one brando pic. i really have nothing better to do now. cause i'm too lazy to start work.

the soli in blue ridge was terrible! after hearing it. omg far off from the actual version. yucky. but nevermind. shan't dwell on it.

chinese oral was hard today. i somehow stoned there when she asked me "shen me shi huan bao". there was just this uncomfortable silence before i regained composure. i spent half the stoning period thinking "cheryl are you gonna cry? don't cry! cheryl.." before i actually thought of something pretty relevant.

gonna upload the rest now. gonna take about 1hr before it gets on YouTube.

i'm still feeling the adrenaline from yesterday!
OMGOMGOMGOMG, jbf is the best thing ever!

i can't believe i didn't screw it up much! i was panicking before the performance, even thinking of asking leanne to exchange parts with me at barbara ann.

AND I DID IT!!!! and nothing even comes close to that feeling. nothing. omg i sound like dwayne johnson in "The Gameplan" where he says "Nothing is more important. Nothing" or something like that. all hail the great dwayne johnson.

thank god all went well. i just keep humming the tunes, as well as imagining the positions. i just hope the soli was good. i was playing blue ridge halfway, and i looked out at the corner of my eye and i was that the soli was 10 bars away, my heart skipped a beat and i stopped playing for half a bar before continuing.

i was thinking to myself halfway through beyond the highlands, "cheryl this is the first song. it's already so long. how are you going to get through barbara ann?" and it just kept repeating in my mind.

but somehow whenever mr desouza gave the trombone section that look, the "it's your melody, play louder!" it somehow gives me the i-have-no-idea-what to play louder. that confidence. so i did. and thank god i did.

MWAAHAHAH! i'm forcing wy to send me the beyond the highlands recording. it's halfway through right now. kaijun's passing me the disc tomorrow. can't wait!!

WHOOOO!

JBF ROCKED!!

and i didn't screw up barbara ann or surf city or the soli at blue ridge. zi ling rocked, no, really, she was seriously good!
i gave desouza the poster i made. He pinched me:S well he can't scold me when he looks at the card we gave him. cause we're not gonna see him anymore, ha!
i sent him an email with a picture of him at the end of blue ridge. i drew that picture. i shall post it up later.

i was dared by sarah and wy to kiss him on the cheek. but i just blew kiss him and ran away. i hope he's not pissed either. and haha, he added me on facebook at 1.26am yesterday. wow, boy does he sleep late.

Overall, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. WE weren't as bad as we thought we would be:D i shan't be ego or big-headed about it. although i was last night. dorcas and 'abigail' went. They couldn't tell the trombone melodies. well i don't blame them, i couldn't last year either.

GO TROMBONES!

I'm ONE NIGHT away from JBF!!



okay now i'm really quite nervous. leanne can't actually cover up for us like she did in 'My First Band Concert'. I have to pitch all my notes correctly!



i wrote a lil' something for desouza. well it's actually to poke fun of him. and i'm giving him evidence that i stalked him, lmao. well i didn't stalk him! i just looked him up on the internet. and haha, boy have i found some funny stuff. and all the other band's blogs about him. haha.



i'm gonna miss those rides home! wow that's mean, i'm not gonna miss him but his rides home. nevermind, i didn't mean it in that way anw.



Ah, my bro's listening to Poison "mama don't dance and your daddy don't rock n roll". i cannot have rock in my head right now! although i just listened to another one bites the dust. haha.

Let's hope i dream of Westlife tonight!! the last time i did, i had a fantastic day:D GO WESTLIFE! and yay, i've found another current westlife fan. go westlife!

GO RACHEL AND THE WHOLE TRUMPET SECTION FOR JBF! AND NATALIE TOO! ALL THE SOLOISTS!! GO CHO LING AND CHLOE FOR THE SOLOS!! i don't need to say go ziling cause she's pro enough. ha! ha! ha!

and.. GO TROMBONE SECTION.

this past week from wednesday onwards has just been JBF JBF JBF JBF! and nothing else.

i keep listening to the recorded version of big fun, so i would know how i'm supposed to play and how to sound. and it's nice too! i've finally listened to blue ridge's recorded version's soli. holy shit! we're nothing compared to that soli. it's either their trombone is better, or they're really better lol.

i've been listening to christian lindberg and kenny g too. o.o i'm turning into a classical freak! lmao, not that there's anything wrong with that. i really like kenny g, from a non-saxophone view. i understand why many saxophonists don't like him. but i'm not a saxophonist! haha.

it's now 8.18am in the morning. why have i woken up so early? I THOUGHT THERE WAS TUITION! and my mum told me that the tuition teacher was sick, grrr.

i'm now listening to big fun. i'm at surf city right now. i hear the gliss, now i hear the flutes. lalalala`.

i can't get JBF out of my mind. now i'm nervous. about big fun. i always start of with the wrong note. my lips die on me halfway through surf city. i have no idea when to come in after the drum solo in blue ridge, and i don't know if i'll screw the soli up. *fingers crossed*

apparently, mr tan will be there 'judging'. well just writing down comments. gah!

JBF IN TWO DAYS TIME!

i'm really psyched up for it. wait, let me describe band in detail today. oh no, here i go again. lmao.
we had sectionals and mr desouza would attend to each section separately and stuff. at first leanne, wenyuan and i practised really hard. for 1/2 hr. then we went back to slacking mode. tried to get our act together, but after another 15 mins we just started playing again.

i feel quite guilty actually. then when we saw mr desouza practising with the flutes, saxes and clarinets. and we were playing on the sofa and wenyuan saw him staring at us. so we started practising. on the see-saw.

when he came over and said 'you're playing the trombone.. on the seesaw' i said 'you asked us to practice.. balance'. slipped out of my mouth. he hit me with his stupid file.

so a few of the saxes, french horns and trombones practised with him. the moment he left, wenyuan and i started playing football. he was pretty pissed. oops?

well, at least he was satisfied with one thing! our soli in blue ridge:D:D i'm just scared i'll screw it all up on jbf.

i got a lift home from mr desouza after band! WHOOOO! i kept laughing to myself in the car he asked me to shut up. oh and his ringtone is 'way back into love' by hugh grant and i don't know who. but i like hugh grant!:D great actor, too.

and then he said 'cheryl, i have bad news for you. i'm changing my destination from bishan to jurong' i was like wth.

so he dropped by at the raffles town club bus stop. ARRGHHH! i told him he owes me two rides home, come to think of it, after jbf, there's no more band prac!! dammit! i'll get him back.

and because of him, i met a crazy guy while walking back to sc. SCARY.

so yes, i'm psyched up for JBF! and i hope my lips don't die on me halfway through so i can play big fun! GO ZILIN! YOU'RE THE BEST!

blahblahblah, going to practise my piano now.

i haven't blogged in a few days. and these few days have been great, well at least i think so.

especially saturday night! fun, fun, fun!!

nothing much happened on sunday or monday. just that i spent the whole monday playing the comp, when i'm supposed to be mugging. oh, i was sleeping too. i have a study plan to keep up to!! i kept checking out westlife vids, and ant and dec, and on ebay too!

i found the westlife autobiography selling at a really cheap price, 7 pounds. well, it's not exactly say very cheap, but not as expensive as the rest. cause it's sold officially, not from Amazon sellers. the cheap ones aren't available to be shipped to Singapore.

today, i will keep up with my study plan! as hard as i can!

there's band at 2pm today. and thank you mr desouza, you made me bring my trombone home on saturday. when you knew that i lost my borrowing card!! and then the seniors found out. and found it, too. and now, i have to take a bus to school, carrying an extra big trombone case. extra heavy, too. the embarrassment.. thank you mr desouza. so much.

but nevermind! i did practice a little bit yesterday. it may have been worth it.