this is a conversation between me and dorcas.




[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
cheryl, remember you told me bout your fren's rachel goh's blog?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
can tell me again?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
please?
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
rachel goh or rachel ang?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
the one that you fought with
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
oh that's rachel ang
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
paper-heartts.blogspot.com
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
why?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
fun
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
lol okay
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
visit mollyactuallyhasablog.blogspot.com, too
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
its i think a little better
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
LOL
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
er...
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
dont have your pic
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
why would there be my pic?
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i always avoid the camera
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
lol.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
sad
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
im always the one taking the pictures
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
grr.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i wanna your pic..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
nah, dont have any
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
unless you check my facebook
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
hahars.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
okok
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
its haha
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
not hahars
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
url?
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(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
dont be twit
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
haha*
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
go check up my facebook
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
just search cheryl lim
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
kk
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and the one with a picure of ant and dec
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and its not kk its okok
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
dont be ah lian!
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
im in a rush
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
no you're being twit and ah lian
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
whadeva..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
its not whadeva either
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
its whatever
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
DORCAS, since when were you twit?!?!
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
cheryl, im not trying to be offensive or anything
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
miie thiinks euu arre twiits
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
but can you just please stop
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
like
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
forget it
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
miie thiinks twiittingx iish baddxx
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
LOL!
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
feeling lame, I SHALL CONTINUE
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
iim n0rt a twiit!
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
lol that's the best
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
then feeling tired i shall just sign off



why is she being like that? am i being horrible?


ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
now one more person that treats me like crap
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
dorcas you KNOW why im like that
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you know i've had people dunking the shit out of me in school
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
well, the truth is
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
in sc
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i dont
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
people have treated me like crap
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i dont know whad happen to you cheryl
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
well not people
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but some people
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
they've treated me like crap, and dunked the shit out of me
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and the last thing i want is dorcas, i dont want you to become like those bimbs and twits
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
seriously, i felt irritated. and im not treating you like shit
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
and i know my limits.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
im not trying to say im like know it all
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
but... sometimes..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
in all honesty, im still upset over your one-worded answers
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
perhaps its that you're tired
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but when im feeling down. i want to be happy. i want to talk to you
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and you give me a one word reply
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and i dont know who to talk to anymore
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i never like to talk about my problmes
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
problems*
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
cause i know its boring and it'll bore you
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
this is like some mushy shit
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
but seriously im not being sarcastic now. i've nothing else to say
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but you know when im just feeling like shit. i always think that the first person i can talk to is you
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and then i bull a whole lot of shit
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
and do you know i felt like a piece of shit
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and you say "okay.. " or "haha"
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i want you to talk to me like how i talk to you!
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
the way you said st.nichs
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i just wanted some advice fromyou
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
but ended up..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and that's advice for you!
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you can go to methodist girls' school
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i think its good.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
well, put it in a nicer way
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
im a frank person
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and you know that
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
from young i wanted to follow you wherever you went
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
nanyany,
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i dont like saying "well.." and go all beating around the bush
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
cedar
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
scgs.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i dont want you to follow me
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but i dont want you to go to st nichs
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
then dont make me
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you should go to raffles
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
listen
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
people also think that scgs is not a very good school,
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
some people think its a fantastic school
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but the fact is im in there
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
like me. i think its a great school
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and i think is great
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
im a very critical person
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i know
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and i think scgs is great
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
frankly, i dont like my primary school
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
but. some people think st.nichs is a great school.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but the fact is, dorcas i know you'll regret it
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you'll regret being in st nichs
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
have you ever been in st.nichs?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
how would you know?
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i have friends in st nichs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and you remember that piano friend?
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i think she's great
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i have frens in st.nichs too..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and she's form st nichs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
dorcas why wont you just trust me
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i dont know what's best for you cause im not your mum
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
or whateve
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
whatever*
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
why wont you trust me.?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i know whad im doing
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
the fact is, dorcas. you dont
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you're not even doing anything
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you're thinking of doing something
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i've been thinking a lot
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i had a terrible choice to make between cedar and scgs
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
just that you dont know
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i still love cedar
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but scgs rocks so much that it supercedes cedar
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but st nichs is no where near
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
xiu er lao shi says that we should let god decide which school we shouldgo
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
the st nichs talk came to me when i was in primary school
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
and im just doing it, not that god wants me to go to st.nichs
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
im waiting
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i thought WOW it was great
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
okay, since you put it that way
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i hope you'll wait for a proper answer from God
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
God gave me an answer that i should go to scgs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and i did
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
because caris' mum told me to ask god
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and seek for an answer
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and that's what i did
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i got an answer
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i didn't regret it
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
although i've had many bumpy times
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i hope you get a right answer
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
really
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and i told my mum about it
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i realised what i said was very wrong
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
just yesterday i told my mum about you wanting to go to st nichs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and me wanting you to go scgs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
dorcas i regret a lot of things i say to you, just that i dont apologise
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
im just scared that you'll turn out like a bimbo
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
or an ah lian
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
because i've only seen one or two people who aren't in st nichs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
well maybe 20%
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
are you sure you can be that 20-30%?

i dont know. we lack communication. LOTS of communication, perhaps.


[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i dont know.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i cant be so confident that i wont. but nat.. her sis is from st.nichs. from whad she says st.nich is a good school. and from whad you said scgs is a wonderful school, her sis is a very very nice person totally differ from whad you said about the others.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
she may be that 20%
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
not that i dont wanna go scgs.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
but..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
in scgs, there is like 60-70% of the people who aren't ah lians or twits
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
they're actually different
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i know.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
in st nichs, let's say im wrong
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
may be 50%
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
still, its 50%
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
you said its not that you dont want to go to scgs but..
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
but what?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i dont know.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
is it because you want to become so much like your friends sister?
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
its just between scgs and st.nich if i ever get the choice
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
no.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
dorcas i hope you'll think about going to scgs
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i mean, it'll be so cool
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
i can actually see you in school
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i know.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
and go home with you
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
we can go home together
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
take mrt togegther
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i know.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
i would LOVE
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
it.
(ANT AND DEC ROCK ON![e-learning, the fun of it all] says:
we have more topics to talk about
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
just let me think about it.
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
anw, i've got to go
[b]im more than what you made of me[/b] says:
bye

i mean, when my day's down. i think about dorcas. i just want to know how her day's are getting along. i mean what's troubling her. what's up with her. but all i get is a "haha" or "okay.. "

why do i get these replies? im always very gutted after reading her smses. i just want to communicate more.

i just broke down just now. i've been having a hard time. im tired of getting one-worded un-enthu replies from everybody. am i too enthu about the world?

why is it that im always let down by everyone? am i too easily hurt, or do i undo my hurt too quickly?

i have so much to talk about with dorcas. all she gives is oneworded replies, and i dont know how to continue. i dont know how to continue my day. i dont even know how to continue the conversation!

she's the only person i've cared so much in my entire life. its like a boy-girlfriend relationship. but its not. i really care for her. call me sad, but i've never truly cared about someone so much.

i dont want her to end up like an ah lian. i may have a large ego, yes. but i want her to become an sc girl. like me. i dont want her to go to st nichs.

the thing i need most it comfort. nobody seems to be giving me any. and i desperately need it.

i've been severely letdown by this world.

tonight im going to pray hard. i hope god will give me an answer. i hope god will give dorcas a correct answer.

i hope things will soon be better.