its pretty sad. well, how band has turned out. not that i dislike band, or anything so.

everybody's fighting. EVERYBODY. i've never seen such a big group of people fighting before. and its not because "we know each other so well and that happens. like a conflict in a family".

we dont know each other well, and that is exactly the reason why we fight. i dont think its because our personalities dont match or anything, maybe so but there isn't anybody out there that fits us to a "T" i guess.

are we really an attitude batch? like ms leong who came to conduct. t-bones were making a lot of noise. can't help it and when we shut up. nobody else bothered to talk. when ms leong asked questions, nobody bothered to speak. is it really true that most of us hate band?

when ms leong asked if we were in band because we liked it, i think i dint see too many hands up. is what mr desouza said true? that we come to band for the sake of it and then after band we just leave, forgetting everything.

i don't know. just hope things turn out better after awhile. maybe the band camp's a good thing! :D although im missing church camp! well i dont really like church camp anyway.

i wish the sec 1's in church won't keep sticking to their seniors in sec 2 to 4. first of all, i wasn't in church choir. only abigail and I weren't in church choir. so everybody in church choir is very bonded, yes i understand that.

its hard for abigail and I not to feel left out. im pretty okay with the sec 1's in my batch but when they mix with the sec 2's, i dont know what to do. i dont even know what to say to the sec 2's. if i saw one of them in the bus i'm most likely to say "hi" and walk away. i really have nothing to say to them!

and there's just this awkwardness between the guys. the whole hx, dorcas and I thing has spread all over the church including to the adults. and once, dorcas and I were walking to the coffee shop and we saw the guys including hx. then the guys whistled and said to me "aiyah, you dont be dian deng pao la!"

i felt uber extra. like dorcas and hx, and i'm the extra.

nevermind, about these sad thoughts! going to listen to happy music:D