I have "Ave Verum Corpus", stupid song. And i wonder why do i sound so horrible playing it. It's so easy, yet we sound horrible.

After band, ruyue and I stayed back because I had to keep all the scores and find my stupid card which i lost while jamie just left without helping me. I don't know why, but I cried. I said that 'i'm so frustrated that i can't find my card, and jamie just left when it is her job to collect the cards'. But that wasn't the real reason i cried. far from it, in fact. i don't even know why i cried!

Just came back from tuition. I read my yearbook. And this is what joanna wrote "Dear Cheryl, Thks fro being such a good friend. I will always remember you. Gd luck for whatever u do in life. Try not to get into too much trouble and slow down in your relationships. Best wishes for your PSLE Results"

And that really reminded me of how i was in primary school. To live one day and not get into trouble with any of the teachers is really something quite remarkable. And i remember when i met leon on maplestory, and met him once. Then broke up with him. lmao! That really reminded my so much of primary school. I miss all my mates in primary school, and now, I've lost contact with all of them. Oh fuck.

Pretty much a sob now, just that i'm keeping it all inside. i'm not actually crying, i hope i can get joanna's email when somebody goes online. joanna, that girl who sat next to me for almost two years. I remember i was sitting with swetha, then we talked too much and i had to be transferred. sat next to michelle next, still talked too much! then sat next to joanna. totally shut up. then we started talking a whole lot of crap, loved her! as much as we fought, literally, i scratched her like mad, and quarrelled, she'll forever be one of my bestest friends. to think i actually lost contact with her.

How pathetic am i.