for god's sake cheryl! why the fuck is it so hard for you to bloody concentrate for a freaking half an hour then go on the comp? why can you spend hours on the comp and yet not touch your books.

tomorrow's lang arts and bio test. i haven't studied for both. nothing to study for lang arts. bio? LOTS. and i'm just plainly lazy. why is it so hard for me to get some fucking discipline?!?! WHY.

and now i'm listening to PJ and Duncan- O.U.R. Radio Rocks. pj and duncan, what losers. compared to the ant and dec they are now? big difference. big, big difference! the ant and dec know has been watched by half the english nation at least once. and won NTA's 7 times. 2007 claimed three awards, despite the freaking vote-in scandal.

see! i'm distracted again. get a grip! don't let it slip! lol, that sounds like some pj and duncan song, so trashy.but i'm trashy! oh wait, no i'm not.

okay, so cheryl. CALM DOWN. listen to soothing proper music. westlife. don't think about the autobiography you ordered online without your mum's permission. don't think about the workload you have which is due on wednesday. and don't think about how you're going to get ant and dec's biography coming out in october, cause it's months away and you will get it somehow. don't think about when's the croke park dvd gonna come out, because when it does, it does, and you will get it too. don't think about where you get so much money to..

HOLY SHIT FUCK. TOMORROW'S MY BRO'S BIRTHDAY! SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. IIIIIIIIIIII FFFFFFFFFOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTT!!!

i totally forgot!!!!!!!!!!! and he gave me a necklace the last year for MY birthday! and a lovely, lovely touch-the-heart kind of handwritten card. and i cried! and he brought me to the arcade and showed me what fun i could have with $15.

oh god, and what am i going to give him? hell, i feel guilty now. i'm going to write a card tomorrow!
so last minute.
but yes, i will do it.
because i love my brother!:D