now i know how it feels to really dread something. i've never actually dreaded something. it's just the come-on-get-this-quickly-over-with thing. but now, i'm really dreading going to senior band. leanne used to tell me how she dreaded going to senior band, and i never really understood why. perhaps i have different reasons on why i don't wanna go to senior band, but it's still the same dread.

i actually wonder why i'm so hated among the sec 2's and 3's. not say, very hated. but pretty much. i guess lots of seniors just dislike me for one reason or another. maybe they think i'm stuck up. or snobbish. or nerdy. or attitude problem. or eccentric. or annoying.

yeah it has to be either of those 6. i think i would mostly fall into the category of annoying, for most seniors. can't help it, can i. even chloe knows i'm super annoying.

well i hope seniors just don't read my blog. most of them don't i think, cause i don't think many people have links to my blog. and stuff. and they wouldn't be so free. although i heard they look at chloe's blog and stuff. i hope the seniors wouldn't take an interest in looking at mine:P

yeah and i figured out that i should just shut up in senior band. in junior band, i would mostly be making a fool of myself. either asking the most annoying or dumbest questions or doing the stupidest and lamest shit, ever. but if i ever do that in senior band, i guess most of the seniors would roll their eyes. so the best way would be to shut up, right.

don't ever want to go to senior band:S