i feel so guilty now, and today's supposed to be happy day isn't it.

first of all, i regret so much for not studying. i keep telling myself i don't care anymore, i can go to PE or GR for all i care, i'm gonna fail whatever, i don't care. the fact it, i do care. i care so much, and i really wanna do well. just that i couldn't bring myself to study. and now i regret not having the discipline to study. i rarely regret about things since i never like looking back and saying how stupid i was cause i normally like my decisions, but i'm just filled with regret. i wouldn't ever want monday to come actually..

second of all, i hope and pray that dorcas does well enough to come to sc, try all means to explain to her that $200 isn't expensive and it's worth it. i wish and pray that she would do extremely well and go to either rgs or sc, never to st. nics. so it's either she does better than 254 or better than 265. anywhere between that range so she'll go to either one. and then today i was supposed to help her with science, since she has her science psle tomorrow, i was lazy to call her to check if she was home. i kept playing the comp and watching movies, i was lazy to help her. and i wish and pray that she would do well when i'm so lazy to go over and see how she's going? gee, what a friend.

yeah so today's a boring day. done lots of things i never got to do. but still.... extremely boring.