now i'm really wondering why i want to get into 2sy. is it to continue being happy about being smart? to be happy that i'm smart-er? to satisfy and assure myself that i'm able to be smart?

like seriously, why do i want to go to 2sy. i tell myself, i'm born-lazy, and being in sy has influenced me to work hard and has really been a positive influence so far so just another year and i would become as hardworking as ever. but is that really how it would be?

i have no idea why i want to get into 2sy anymore.