i need to correct my post. i did not quarrel with my mum. it started out as a heated argument. and went on to a proper quarrel, and then i tried to resolve it into a heart to heart talk but failed terribly, tried to turn it to a heated talk which still failed, and then i just slammed the door. after i said 'will you listen to me, mummy?!' and she said 'no' and looked away.

so it really wasn't a quarrel. at least i tried not to make it into one. i'm trying to improve on myself. and look at her. okay no, that's just plain bitching. okay i'm trying to improve on myself, but i don't think she is. i don't need to see her trying, whatever she does just tells me so.

you know what, WHY THE HELL AM I STILL TALKING ABOUT HER. i promised myself to calm down and not talk about her. and do proper work. and i failed. god I WILL STOP TALKING ABOUT HER.