i'm flying off to laos tomorrow! just got extra scoresheets from esther, who is extra helpful.


very excited for this trip. looking forward to not looking forward to it. looking forward to being scared of dirty bathtubs and bedsheets. on second thoughts, THERE MAY NOT BE BATHTUBS OR BEDSHEETS OR AIRCON. dammit. looking forward to being disgusted too.

as in seriously. i need to stop being this pampered little idiot who can't keep her own bed, can't fold clothes properly, can't scoop rice properly, cannot cook a single thing, doesn't want dirty bathrooms, doesn't like dirty walls, doesn't want to sit on old chairs, wants clean tables wherever she goes, scared of bigger than ants insects, doesn't want to eat food which look gross, very picky with food, clean cutlery, etc. i practically want everything to be clean, except myself. seriously, i don't mind if i go there and don't bathe for a week if the bathroom's dirty.

so i hope i return from laos as a less pampered little idiot.

and i'm very pissed with band politics. especially with certain people. you know i never liked doing this. doing the 'certain people' thing. it's so pathetic and lame. why am i doing it now? i don't know but i can't stand it anymore. why bitch about your juniors? and most of the people you bitch about are actually nice people. everyone has certain points you can't stand, but don't go around bitching about practically everybody you're unhappy with. not talking about myself here, although i know certain people who hate me to the absolute core.

but this sucks you know. juniors having to fear being bitched about by seniors. it is so tiring, so pathetic.

oh and there goes, i'm probably going to get bitched about a hell lot again.