you know what, i had no idea how tiring this laos mission trip could be. and it hasn't even started! there's 32 songs to practice with the guitarist. my brother. obviously the worship leaders would think it's easy. my brother's working in my mum's office morning to night. and for what? for fun. and so that he can go shopping with eunice.

and obviously, there are idiots, literally, like my mum who think it's a simple job. i had a piano concert today. i rehearsed in the morning, in the afternoon and then went. come back, i am mentally drained and you want me to rehearse for the 32 songs. i understand, i only have a week left and i haven't fully mastered the songs. and when i say i'm tired and i'm overstretching myself you say... "so? you have 32 songs leh". what...?!

and then there are idiots like i-don't-know-who-planned-the-programme who wanted music during the singing in devotion. ?!?!?!?!?!?! i know it's nice to have music! but they make it sound like such an easy job. so now i've extra songs to learn because somebody wanted music during devotion. maybe it's just not a church habit, but we never had music playing during devotion.

i'm only sec 1! wth can i do?! and i actually feel bad complaining. it's a mission trip. and i'm here complaining about how much work i have to do. i actually dread going to toilets without doors. mosquitoes crawling over me at night. no aircon, no proper bed. everything! i'm too pampered. and i have to stop it. more trips to kluang would do the job.

i bet when i get back to church after the laos trip, i'll have to do sharing. i already have stuff to share! like how... idiotic idiots can be. no, hahahaha just trying to vent anger. but i know i'll definitely have learnt loads. the last time i went on a mission trip to kluang, IT WAS AWESOME! bathing in toilets which smelt like shit and using pails to scoop water to bathe. teaching the children english. falling off the swing twice. getting grumpy and moody due to the dirty-ness and rundown-ness. learning to cope with dirt all around me. learnt so much!

hmmmm, wonder how dirty laos can get. oh well... i really shouldn't complain. looking forward to it actually.

ohoh I WENT FOR ANOTHER HAIRCUT! my brother couldn't stand my weird hair. so i went to cut my fringe:( no it's just... weird-er.

CONCERT WAS AWESOME! I AM SO EGO! I THINK I WAS AWESOME! seriously. whooooooooooooooooooo! before my turn came, i was walking all around and stuff. being so nervous, talking to everyone possible. let me see the people i've gotten closer to and the people i've got to know. jia hui, chaowang, jonchi, lydia and vincent i got closer to. i met sarah and kai wen and the teacher's two sons. awesome. after the concert was this after-concert 'party'. well the teacher calls it a party. it's just food and talking. my brother and eunice came. so we ate together with the piano people. then they slowly went off.

CONCERT WAS AWESOME! yippeeeeeeee. so ego. too ego! now my ego's becoming more undeflatable. only my bro can deflate it. and janine!!:@

band tomorrow. how the hell am i gonna tie my hair with such a weird fringe. i'll look like either a cleopatra failed wannabe, since i don't have bangs, or peiyi, the girl with the WEIRDEST hair in the world. eeeeeeeeeeeeeks. now i hate my hair.