gahhhh so demoralised during band today. crap horrible band prac. rephrase. i was crap horrible during band prac.

i didn't have the mood for band although in the morning i had loads of mood for band and the previous day too. i guess practising during that 1/2 hr with leanne destroyed my mood! i can't hold the notes for 8 counts. still. i'm sec 2 already! GASP. and i can't hold notes for 8 counts?!

i shan't make excuses and say oh it's the bass trombone. it's the bigger mouthpiece and stuff. cause it's been a month i think since i got the mouthpiece and trombone. and i still can't hold 8 counts.

then i played shit horrible during band. sounded so out of tune, and horrible intonation and everything was horrible. the worst i've played in a long time. then i swear there was this rattling sound coming from my trombone which janine insists is the metal frame things coming from the lights. but i still insist it's from my trombone. so it really affected me.

and i was shit horrible. so demoralisedddddddd.