well somebody's certainly been a mood spoiler on cny.

went out for a late night movie yesteryday. 'the wedding game' was extremely disturbing. can't believe it's pg. i saw 7-year old kids in there, they must've been so polluted by the end. before the movie, i wanted to take a picture of the empty junction 8, rare sight. and my brother went 'take what take' and threw his banana skin at me. i was pissed enough and then he asked me to pick it up. then you think i'm showing attitude when i don't reply your question cause i didn't hear it since i'm so wrapped in my angry thoughts.

you know, why control so much? i control so much and at the end it's still misunderstood as attitude. if i didn't control, when my brother said 'didn't you hear my question?' i would say 'no' and walk off. and when he said 'have you been living under a rock for 10 years of your life?' i would say 'yes, not like you who has probably engaged in underage sex'

i wonder what the hell happened to that nice brother who would do fun stuff with his sister. now it's turned to pointing middle fingers, swearing vulgarities, being horrible, and being even more horrible.

so we were basically taking pictures to send to the laos people. since the people at CNEC said so. my brother decided to take my room. then i'm like 'i should be in there! since it's my room! else it'll look like who's there? my dead grandmother?' eunice and i burst out laughing. it wasn't funny. well we were just in a good mood but it was something you would give a blank stare at in normal moods.

then my brother said 'that wasn't funny.' eunice and i continued laughing. he said 'i said that wasn't funny. wipe that smile off your face' i'm like. wth?! is he trying to spoil the mood again. eunice didn't wipe that smile off her face either. why don't you go attack her instead of me. why spoil the mood then tell my parents that i won't listen unless he's firm with me. bloody hell what's wrong with saying lame stuff and just laughing. then he goes saying 'bloody hell tell her to stop laughing still laugh' why don't you tell that in eunice's face? did she stop laughing?

and i still feel so guilty talking about eunice like that. but it's true. he thinks his girlfriend is fucking superior. i'm fat, no good at the piano and i'm a horrible person. she's skinny, extremely multi-talented and the best person in the world.

why am i talking about this again? on cny. he's going to use up all his niceness sooner or later. i wonder how i thought of his niceness theory. he has a certain amount of niceness which is used up on eunice everyday so he comes back home being the bastard he is. and everyday it decreases so he just keeps trying to use all of it on eunice and being even more bastard at home. sooner or later there won't be enough and he'll just end up a bastard. the bastard he is.

how vulgar am i.