my brother's back from the army! he got an extra day after this weird 8-day field camp.

so he's back for three days! although it doesn't make a difference, cause it's just an extra day to go out with eunice:/ I NEED TO TALK TO HIM! there's so much to tell him! band, tests, math, stress, good stuff, blahblah.

he should come back early tonight so i could see him for more than 10 minutes before he leaves for i-don't-know-where again.

i'm becoming so negative:(

no matter how satisfied and happy i feel after sectionals, or happy with myself for practising hard, there's always this pit bottom of discontentment, dissatisfaction, dissapointment and frustration. i finally figure what it is. i'm practising so much, but i'm not improving enough.

i'm not improving at the pace i should be. i'm not being all low ego and saying i suck and i'm not good. i just feel that i'm not good enough. i'm really not improving enough.

and today i just felt so happy because i finally had enough air to play part B of overture 1 without having to breathe at random weird places. and somebody had to be all demoralising.

geog was fun today. comp lad 3, type and print a lorms essay on why singapore is a transport and communications hub with evidence from the textbook. which was piece of cake.

MATH TUITION WAS FUN! did i just say that? yeah i did.
i finally found somebody that's exactly the same as me(creepy) and somebody i can talk to in tuition. FINALLY, after being overloaded with mgs girls all over the place. not that there's anything wrong with that, they're nice:/

so today wasn't so much of a bad day. bad day in school but good day after school.